I miss u already <3

haha i noe its like 2 minutes 2 6 am.. n i oni slept at 2 sumthin n i hav been awake 4 abt da pass hour or so...well i couldnt help myself frm blogging.. hahahaha.. last nite at d live n loud KL (lnlkl) hazwan wraped me aroud his arms.. he was so warm.. n i wished he wud never let go..i felt so loved.. so special.. n i luv him so much 2..more than words can eva say.. I cant stop feeling da way he touched me.. his hands were so delicate.. i wish u were here rite now..he kept me warm throught da concert.. for the 1st time im not rubbing both my hand n keeping me warm.. lol.. he also gave me this purple flower hair pin.. he even knew my fav colour without me telling him.. i was in cloud nine.. well i still am.. haha.. n ju yi knew how high i was.. hahaha..last nite was the best ever.. a nite which i will never 4 get with the 1 i love p.s : sry i din kiss u last nite.. i juz couldnt find the right moment.. i noe v spent a lot of time 2 getha bt ter juz wasnt the perfect moment yet...

watz happening 2 malaysia??

i gotta ask.. watz happening 2 malaysia?? so much of racism... da HINDRAF thing dat juz took place.. well it ink it was right wat da indians stood up 4.. nowdayz v r not even given anything.. everything juz seems 2 b given 2 d malays.. sry if i ofended any1.. i dont intedn 2 .. bt its da truth.. 2day in d papers.. ter was news dat a cop was admited in da hosp.. n dat came out in d news.. y?? hmm well these stupid ..blaredd cops.. hit women n children. wat the hell rite.. tey din even do nth.. it was juz a gathering 2 show dat v 2 want our rights.. n da tear gas tey released.. it killed a peron wit asthma.. did all dat come out in d news.. NO!! tey try 2 cover up.. watz gonna happen 2 our country.. i used 2 b proud being a malaysian.. bt now.. no more.. ters so much of corruption goin on.. our belloved country is starting 2 ruin.. its reli sad 2 c this happening in our country.. i reli hope v can get peace soon.. i dun wan any war or anything happening..i want our country 2 b bak 2 da way it was once uopn a time.. like wen i was a kid.. i could go out n play n not b afraid of rapist..not afraid of being kidnapped.. times wen every1 lived in harmony.. now racism is everywhere.. in a skool of my friends.. da malay oni hang oyt wit d malays, da chinese wit da chinese n da indian wit d indian... v r all da same nside although our skin mite b diff colours.. i miss the old malaysia

I meow u <3

i miss my love so much.. i cant wait 2 him 2mrw...well i was chatting wit sum1 earlier 2day.. n he sorta told me sum stuff which is true.. it was abt me n him.. well i noe v r frm different dinominations.. n well both our religion dont reli go well 2 getha.. bt i still love him so much.. n he loves me 2.. i noe if v cud make tis last.. ter wil b lots dat v will have 2 go through.. n v hav 2 face many chellenges.. it wil make a relationship grow stronger rite?? i noe i think waaaaayyyy 2 much.. well its cuz i wana noe watz it gonna b like in d future.. i wanna noe will this last?? cuz i noe getting hurt is so not nice..call me nutz bt i even imagined us living 2getha..doin da grocery shopping 2 getha..cooking.. goin 4 vacations.. sunset by the beach.. a nice candle lit dinner.. mayb sum wine.. a girl can fantasize rite??rite?? xD guess wat i gt my hair highlighted =D well it was cuz Prithy had done hers, her moms, both her maids n ter was so much xtra so i gt mine dyed 2 =D n both my sis aslso joined in da fun.. well its burgundy n not obvious n it oni can b seen under the sun which is gud cuz im still schooling...lol i duno y i seem 2 hav lost my x-mas spirit.. well im supposed 2 b making x-mas cards.. baking cakes n cookies.. start shopping 4 my x-mas clothes n PRESENTS!! bt like no mood laah.. no idea y.. hmmph... its so boring at home.. i cant even go out..i feel like goin 4 a jog or cycling around bt like ter sm construction goin on nearby n like afta da incident dat happened 2 my uncle hu happens 2 live nxt door.. i so dun feel safe leaving my hse.. watz da incident u ask.. well it happened 1 day b4 my parents wedding anniversary.. Well it was a preety normal day for my uncle till he came home frm work.. he got down the car n then thats wen it hapened.. a bunch of guyz abt 8 of em got out of da car frm de bak n hit my uncle oh da head n hr fainted on de spot..tey also took his car.. loads of blood oozing.. every1 was screaming hysterically.. my mum, sis n aunt..my dad wasnt at home at de time..n well my neighbours..talk abt wonderful,caring n helpful ppl .. nobody came 2 help xcept 4 one of my neighbours.. da others juz stood n looked frm behind da gates of their houses.. well i get it ur afraid 2.. bt at least afta tey left u cud hav given a helping hand rite?? da worst was da shp ppl opp my hse.. Chickens i tell u.. i was reli..reli mad at em.. acting like tey din hear a thing.. bt tey were looking frm behind da curtains in their hse.. n oni afta everything.. i mean everything was ova tey asked wat had happened.. tey taught v kids were juz playing.. YEAH RITE!! like common laa.. dun tell me ur dat dumb.. cant u like hear da diff kinda screams.. da neighbour guy dat came 2 help.. helped carry my unc in2 d car 2 b taken 2 da hosp.. he lost his memory 4 a efew dayz.. now he is getting better though hs is not very stable yet.. da docs said dat it wil take abt 6mnths 2 cure fully.. scary.. i noe.. although i wasnt ter it spooked me.. juz imagine it happened rite nxt 2 my hse.. n da mastermind behind tis was definately trying 2 get myuncle cuz previously abt 2 weeks b4 tis happen.. anotha bunch of gangstaz tried 2 hijack his car at jln semarak... tey came wit parangs n axe.. n managed 2 oni break da windsow of da car... thank god my uncle quickly reversed n made a run 4 it.. neva taught a person like my uncle wud come across things like tis.. its reli very unfortunate.. luckily nth even worse happened.. wat happend 2 da police investigations u ask.. USELESS POLICEMAN!!!!!!! im blardeee angry eit da cops in malaysia.. tey reli dun deserve respect.. i despite em.. like tey were supposed 2 b on da case rite.. ter was so much of evidence.. n v even found my uncle stolen car n da car tey came in... both had weapons in em.. v then called da police n informed em.. n tey din bother afta my dad pulled sum strings then tey came n took sum finger prints.. n my dad even had 2 giv under table money 4 dat.. afta dat no action.. nth.. how useless can da cops in malaysia b ??? tey dun even seem 2 giv a damn abt lil ppl like us.. sigh..

EMO...

Haha.. looks like im not as tough as a rock like H said .. Im way..WAaaayyyy.. more weaker.. especially wen it comes 2 de ones i luv <3 SO lemme givv ya da full version of things dat happened between H n me..

Well dat nite da Prefects dinner thing.. well he was supposed 2 tell me sumthin bt he didnt.. Instead he gave me sumthing else.. ;) So de nxt day.. well he sorta lost his voice bt he stil confessed .. AWWWwww so sweet <3.. Well i kinda ..sorta.. alresy know wat was gonna happen juz din noe de time.. so i was prepared i made him a card.. Watz inside u ask... hmm well datz 4 me n H 2 noe n 4 u 2 find out. *Winks Ter seems 2 b loads of chemistry happening.. =D Oh yea yest he told me he mite b leaving earlier.. mid Dec.. T.T so fast.. wen he told me dat.. i juz broke down on de spot.. i was like y so fas.. anyway he is doing all he can 2 oni leave in Jan.. Luv him so much!! <3 N how things will b so diff.. Dunno hw v r gonna communicate.. How often can he come on9?? the cost of living there is reli high.. dun wana trouble him.. 2 b honest im afraid.. scared like a kitty cat..Prob u ppl wud b like lmao afta reading tis.. bt well.. datz so not da way i feel...

Huge Gap

Well i know i havent been blogging 4 a reli..reli..reli..reli LOOOOoooooNGGGggg time.. Hmm y?? lazy kot or mayb nt in d rite mood.. lol.. OK so lemme juz cut everything short .. N giv u all da scoops 2 d latest things... - Hazwedna?? rings a bell..?!?! things hav been going on... hmmph.. will giv in full detail l8er.. - LS has Cotton Candy so watz gonna happen 2 N?? Oooh.. datz gonna b heck of a juicy news.. - R.. Hmm.. Im starting 2 anti her.. Why?? no idea.. mayb its cuz like i tink she is hiding a lot of things.. n like behaving wierd.. n can b a spoilt sport n a party pooper.. common larrh.. if u hav a prob dun spoils every1 elses mood 2.. N She knows dat im like so pissed wit her 4 doin dat.. Oh yea i also hav news dat she anti me n dat L dosent like C n I.. wth n why does he still hang wit us then?? makes no sense.. WAT DA HELL DID I DO 2 U PPL?? -H told me dat he mite b leaving 4 US WAAAaayyyy earlier than planned.. prob by da mid of Dec.. bt he is trying his best 2 oni leave in Jan Commin up events..camps..ect - Pre Sophmore party?? -Pengguna Camp -YE annual thing.. -$850 leadership camp!! -Parents Anniversary -Samuel's Bday -Zarrah's Bday -Cuzzin TS Outting -KLCC -Work Wardrobe Shopping -Xmas Shopping - House Redocoration - Room Painting well datz da plans 4 now..

MEOW ME!!

Well..well.. looks like im addicted 2 da Meow already .. a disease datz been spreading throughout Sek 5 High... N guess wat H gave me a custom made n designed MEOW ME shirt!! luv it so..so much!! N yes i have been wearing it 4 da pass 2 dayz.. HEY I WASHED IT!! xD Hmm call me a stalker.. bt i have been reading through N's blog n H's blog... Interesting.. loads of thing dat im well not supposed 2 noe is now known.. *gives dat evil grin wit dat evil laugh.. xD

Shop Till Ya Drop...

Well surprise..surprise.. shopping till i drop for 3 dayz in a row goin on 2 da 4th 2 molo.. n wat hav i gotten so far.. hmm.. JUZ 1 TOP... amazing rite.. a person can actually get a top wen she has gone shopping 4 abt 14 hrs all togetha..

wat can i do?? im searching 4 da PURRR-FECT dress 4 da upcommin dinner... saw 2 which i mite buy bt i wil b goin 2 mid valley 2 mrw 2 cek out on more dresses..

Da worst part.. i hav put on quite sum weight thankz 2 da exames which made me not go out n exercise.. hope its worth it.. now i hav 2 like reli push myself if i wana loose all this weight b4 x-mas.. haih...

Has been a long ..long..time...

well it has been quite sum time since i blogged.. so well ters loads 2 tell.. loads of new things goin on.. n well old once dat r cont.. hehe.. New.. - M asked me 2 find out abt RT n he dosent like ST cuz of K -Z new character.. interesting.. bt now he suckz.. -J is thinking of goin solo.. now wat m i gonna do?? -Slashing Wrists?? -K..starting nt 2 like him Cont.. - AD's back.. cant believe he actually remembered me.. does he reli love me n miss me like he said?? Doubt it.. He is prob juz using me n im juz like playing along.. - SA?? watz happen 2 him?? wered he go?? he hasnt msg me in quite a while.. no news till yest.. -P.. hmm mayb i was wrong abt my assumption.. mayb he was juz flirting around.. btw he is like younger than me

Why??

Well i juz read J's blog.. i duno y.. i seemed 2 hav realized sumtin bt i still dino wat exactly wat it is.. Tears juz seem 2 b flowing down my cheeks.. PMR is like da day afta tomorrow... Comming 2 tink of it.. y the hech am i cryin?? Well i do feel lonely.. HECK i do.. IS TER SUMTIN WRONG WIT ME?? well wat dont i have?? hav an awsome family.. awsome frenz... ppl hu care a lot 4 me.. bt ters still sumthing missing... I duno wat bt ter is sumtin missining frm my life... Its like i lost something dat was so precious 2 me.. is it juz me or does every1 hav 2 hav dat special sum1 in their life?? am i missing dat?? am i envious?? am i scared?? am i nervous?? am i a rebel?? did i hurt sum1 datz special 2 me?? did i do something wrong?? or is it cuz i put on loads of weight?? watz becomin of me?? im startin 2 b anti social.. dressin in black.. keepin quite... a part of me is asking wat happened 2 dat cheerful lil gal?? wer has she gone 2?? why is she do depressed?? she has almost eveything ppl want.. She has everthing she needs..but she cant stop crying.. everynight she cries.. but why??

Wierd Much...

Yesterday da FLM meeting was held in my hse.. so ter were da usual kids dat came.. n well 1 of em were P.. Seriously i tink he like has a crush on me or sumtin.. no joke.. 1st he was fine larr u noe like norm ppl.. at dat time i said i wanted 2 study.. well tell me hw larr 2 study in dat noise?? children screamin n runnin all ova n da meeting was down stairs.. at 1st he was like come tell ghost story.. i was like.. ala boring de larr..then v were juz leparkin around n he punched me n i punched him rite bak.. n well i gotta say he is quite strong..oh yea he also ended up like abngin in2 me at all da WRONG PLACES!!accident?? i donnno.. then he gt bored so he said he wanted 2 talk 2 me in private .. so i said ok.. so v wen in2 my room.. he locked da door n da toilet door as well so no1 could enter.. Well he dimmed da room lights.. as my room uses da yellow kinda light it looked cosy n well romantic.. He sat on da bed n i juz laid on my stomach.. Then he started askin me abt skool.. N i was like tellin him larr.. afta dat he wanted 2 tell a ghost stiry.. gotta say he is preety creative 2 make up a story lidat.. bt da thing i still could get was y me ALONE?? dat question was alwiz playing at da back of my mind.. N later v talked abt actress n i asked hu was his fav.. n he wan jessica alba, kiera Knightly n Edna.. LOL i was like yea rite!! bt da way he said my name was diff.. like umm.. i duno hw 2 explain larr.. anyway afta dat v ended up staring at each otha.. it was like almost 5 min.. v were juz foolin around doin stupid eye movements.. afta dat da gf topic came up.. n he told me abt his previos 2 n asked me y?? u wana b my gf?? i was like eww.. no!! Bt da thing was everytime he looked at me in dat sorta way.. i felt like ter was a connection.. U noe dat way like i wana kiss u sorta way.. n NR kept bangin on da door n she said going home.. so i wen 2 cek it out n our private converse ended.. sumhow tis lil voice in my head keeps tellin me he likes u n wanted 2 asku 2 b his.. wierd much?? Aftda dat he wanted 2 tell ghost stories so i wen out 4 awhile n he wanted 2 tell blu stories n i was like NO!! not here.. too many under age.. he is as well..N he was like shud hav told u abt it juz nw.. i wen like YEA!! 2 BAD!! in dat sacarstic way..xD So v ended up exchanging ghost stories.. n in awhile he had 2 go bak..

Bugg3R!!

OMG.. JB is such a bug i tell u.. everytime v met he has 2 do sumtin or say sumtin 2 me.. 2 dy afta tution he purposely kept on stepping on da bak of my flip flop... I tell u.. he has nth better 2 do.. He dosent reli distureb otha girls except me!! IM DA VICTIM!! haizz.. wat can i do?? so geram.. wana juz hit him bak!! xD... I tink im ova AD.. me goofing around aint dat fun de.. So i blocked him!! =D

Sadifiying?

Watz wrong wit me?? i feel like a total mess wen im not.. i feel like a total screw up.. i feel like da whole world is opposing me.. i dun feel wanted no more.. I feel lonely wen im not.. Im getting jelous wen im not supposed 2.. im crying 4 all da reasons dat dun make no sense.. im isolating myself.. is it cuz i need dat sum1 special ter 2 hold me up?? Y dun i feel rite?? is it cuz almost every1 has sum1 xcept me?? Y do i even bother?? I am causing my own pain.. Y am i doing tis?? wats wrong wit me.. Y dun i feel rite.. ters sumthing missing frm me.. I feel like i lost da world 2 sumthing... I feel like my life is falling apart.. Watz goin on?? I reli need sum1 4 me.. not my frenz n family.. cant seem 2 open up 2 em.. tey prob think i gona nutz or sumtin.. N mite juz leave me alone.. I dun like bein alone.. Wers da person u need wen u need him?? Why cant i find him yet?? Y hav i been attracting all da wrong guys 2wards me?? M i dat desperate?? Broken Inside.. Bt on da outside i neva show it.. though sumtimes i seem 2 b in my own world.. bt i can go nutz at times.. bt yet.. da sadness in me juz dosent seem 2 go away.. or is dis all cuz da exames r so close??? GOD PLEASE HELP ME!!!

OucHie....

Ouch.. my shoulder blade seriously hurts 2 da max!! n i sprained my neck 2 make matters worse.. hurting badly.. Skool was fine.. oh yea SA juz smsed me.. N i din bother 2 reply larr.. 2 lazy.. he prob wil b mizcallin me so dat i wud reply.. ish.. its getting annoying wen ppl juz keep on smsin u 4 nth.. except if its dat special sum1 its diff.. =) Not dat i have any1.. bt well.. ==

C was tellin me abt J n S 2 dy.. r tey hiding sumtin?? I duno.. well cant do nth abt it..

I gt so tempted 2 read H's blog.. well tey duno abt my blog.. sorta tryin 2 keep a low profile..

Believe me i gt a lil jelous at times .. Y?? i duno.. bt i noe he is reli nice!!. .. ..

Well he used 2 reli like me i tink its gud dat v r sorta a distant now.. At least he is still da same.. LOL..xD

Im getting a lil worried of myself.. im not studying well.. im taking things 2 lightly.. i dun seem 2 hav fear 4 my PMR tough i noe im not totally prepared.. now its all in GODS hands 2 c wat happens 2 me.. =)

Bet u Wil b wondering wat happened 2 AD.. Well i tink its over between him n me.. He was sorta mytype.. bt had quite sum things dat i din like abt him.. n i guessed he blocked me adi.. anyway he is 2 OLD 4 me!!! & 6 yrs diff.. he cud b my elder bro or sumtin..

Wierd..

AS has been acting reli wierd lately.. V were talkin abt exames n subjects we were weak in.. Then.. he said dat he wud pray 4 me.. n i said dat i hav been praying 4 him alwiz.. n he goes like i not oni pray 4 u bt also all our classmates.. ok i get it he is a nice person..n Enuf wit de Smsing adi larr.. havent i given u enuf hints dat i dun wana go furthur.. N i cant sms u so often?? He is so darn ANNOYING!!

No Fear..

Anotha 15 dayz more n i still hav no fear 2wards da exames.. usually by now i wil b so scared n wil b studying like crazy... looks like im not.. im not avan gud at all my subjects yet!!.. HELP!!!

17 DAYZ MORE..

Juz anotha 17 dayz n i wil b sittin 4 my PMR.. i duno y bt.. i juz cant seem 2 b able 2 juz take it seriously.. i noe it wil help decide my future.. arts or science... bt yet.. da fear is juz not in me.. im juz so relaxed.. im done studying.. i have so much more bt i juz cant seem 2 do it.. i duno y.. bt i juz cant.. well im tryn 2 study rite now.. a lil goin in.. a lil not goin in.. makin notes.. revising.. hopefully i do well.. i pray 2 God.. he is my oni hope left.. <3 Jesus!! aite i beta get goin.. muakxx ~DarK Ang3L

Looks Like i cant stay away...

well im not supposed 2 come on9.. but well.. how can i stay away.. terls lotz of thing 4 me 2 tell.. 1st lets start wit AS.. well.. he is a reli nice guy.. till i stoped smsin him.. told him earlier though i wun b able 2 cont smsin him tis often.. now abt AD.. well he is ok i guess bt a lil stressed up wit work.. he is reli nice n caring .. bt ters 1 thing dat i juz cant seem 2 accept.. He likes 2 talk a lil dirty sumtimes.. i get it he is a guy n stuff lidat.. he needs 2 release tension.. bla..bla..blaa.. everytime i tink abt him.. his nice-ness.. all da thing dat i dun quite like abt him juz flies away frm my mind.. I even dreamt abt him twice.. everytime he starts a converse i dun like i jzu say i gtg n leave.. though he has a very strong aura 2wards me.. he is like my magnet.. i can juz cant seem 2 saty away frm him.. bt da thing is.. v hav a very big age gap.. n im afraid dat he mite nt like me wen he meets me.. stuff lidat.. i even satrted thinking abt da future.. n wondering wil i b able 2 hav a happy life?? can he support me financially?? will my parents approve of him?? many questions run in my head.. at tis point my parents dun wan me 2 hav a bf.. datz preety obvious cuz v were on da way bak frm tution n my mum satrted saying things like all prob satrts wen u hav a bf.. n my dad says watz da use of havin a bf at tis age.. n my goes like.. it bring lots of prob..emotional probs.. n stuff lidat... well wat she says is rite.. bt u noe wen ur at dis age.. u tend 2 hav crushes n wen all ur frenz hav bf.. it gets reli akward wen ur da 3rd person n all ur frenz r wit their pair.. n datz da time u feel like watz wrong wit me?? Why dont i get 2 hav sum1 lidat 4 me..? Well da feeling juz reli sucks.. Well come 2 tink of it.. da ppl hu do well in studies in skool dun seem 2 hav a partner.. so i guess mayb its true.. u can concentrate more.. Bt wen i told AD dat i cant consentrate in studies if i was his gf.. he told me dat wen u hav a partner, tey wil alwiz b ter 2 support u.. b ter 4 u.. n u wil wana prove 2 em ur worth it.. n make em proud.. wat he says is also so true.. N i seriously duno if he is reli serious wit me.. arghh.. hating tis so badly..

Rumah Destiny..

Well yesterday i went 2 Rumah Destiny.. well its a home 4 kids.. had a small bbq party.. well i went 2 an orphanage b4 n da kids ter were totally shy.. bt tey were ok later bt ter were sum whom were still shy.. well in rumah destiny in abt 5 min n we were frenz wit ever1 already!! well except 4 da guys abt my age.. v hardly spoke.. haha.. ter was tis 1 guy AJ.. well i hav bumped in2 him b4 in Metro Tab.. well i neva found him very cute or anything.. he was sorta quiet.. he had a very diff look.. Well i sorta gt attracted 2 him.. Well he has a butt which i taught was hot.. da way he wore his pants din make it obvious bt it was HOt!! (i dun usually do tis.. guess im goin nuts!!) YEa n i still remember his Laugh.. it was so cute.. OMG im attracted 2 him!! anyway he is also my age.. xD well i hope v wil b frenz bt i dun tink i wana reltionship..juz wan it 2 b a lil crush.. if anything were 2 happen i would leave it all in2 Gods hands...

Loooong Time...

its been quite sum time since i have posted nethin.. so lemme tell ya frm da time i wen 2 taiping.. well in taiping.. v wen 4 tis unclee weddin party (da day b4 da party).. well i din expect it 2 b in an estate.. i was in a dress so was my sis.. N wen v wen ter it was like culture colisation!! it felt seriously akward!! wen v 1st entered da lady taught v came 2 do da performance!! LOL... then it rained.. it was so messy n mudddy!!.. then i saw this reli..reli cute guy!! so darn cute!! OMG!! i caould tell he wasnt frm ter.. its was obvious by da way he dressed.. he was so cute!! at da end i wen t home wit my cuz so my parents were left ter n afta abt 30 min tey satrted 2 dance!! i regreted goin bak 2 da hotel!! haizz... shud hav stayed!! Well da nxt day v wen 2 Bkt larut,... well nth much up ter bt da ride up was darn scary!! n da guy drivin da jeep was like fast!! dat made it even more scarier!! well then wen v got bak.. my mum n i wen 2 da saloon 2 do our hair n i met da cute guy walkin ter!! I WAS LIKE omg!! HE IS SO DARN CUTE!!.. anyway..afta i gt bak was doin my hair n studd lidat.. n i gt reli pissed n started yellin at my sis.. cuz everything was goin well.. i was reli..reli..late!! weell wit all dat anger in me.. a few tears juz rolled down my cheeks.. well then we went 4 da weddin.. n v met da cute guy again!! YAY!! he was so cute!! da best part was wen ma parents wen 2 get their food, v were sittin alone n he n his fren came 2 sit wit us.. he started small chat.. n i wanted 2 cont..unfortunately my parents came bak n tey left!! =( sadifiying!! i was sure he was checkin us out adi by then.. hw sad afta my parents ate dinner v had 2 leave 2 KL adi.. =(

Not BAD!!

OMG!! cant belive i actually got 6A's n 1B... im happy bt sad at da same time cuz da B was oni 2 marks away frm an A!! I could hav gt straight A's if i had juz studied!!haizz... at least i did my best... =) WEll im actually quite proud of myself.. lemme cont abt AD aite.. chatted wit him again 2 day.. i wanted 2 tell him dat i sorta lost feelings 4 bt.. i was WRONG!! wen v chatted.. i duno y bt i felt like it was full of chemistry!! its was such a diff feeling... i was abt 2 tell him how i feel n wen he started talkin.. i was addicted2 him AGAIN!!! WATZ WRONG WIT ME??? yorr... im gonna ned up hurting myself.... y cant i do it?? do i luv him?? i told him my results n he was so proud of me.. =) tears started 2 weld up my eyes wen v started chatting.. i duno y bt it did.. I felt like i missed him like neva b4.. missed everything abt him... Oh yea.. my mum was also acting a lil wierd 2 day.. in da mornin wen she woke me up.. She gave me da guess watch she bought 4 herself!! i was like isnt it 4 u?? n she was like 4 u.. present.. i was like 4 wat... n she say cuz i do well i told her u giv present adi merr.. bt she still gave it 2 me

HAPPY or SAD??

Skool waz ok 2day.. nothing reli exciting except 4 da fact i gt an A 4 my bm... i dun get it y does B say im RS gf?? he adi has a gf 4 goodness sake.. i mean like dosent he like get da point?? anyway... im so happy i gt an A 4 BM!! YAY!! so far 6 A's juz 1 more.. most prob i wil b gettin da results by 2molo... now im seriously confused abt AD.. is he calling me a tramp??or waz it ment 4 sum1 else?? did i hurt him?? wuz he reli serious wit me?? he din even approach me... i dun tink he would like my appearance if he met me... i knew he was flirting wit C... bt i taught he was serious wit her cuz im like 6 yrs younger than him... n tey seem very close 2 each other... i sked him abt it once.. he told me it was nothing... AD y r u doin tis 2 me?? he is like a magnet... 2 attractive n im addicted..... i i have been avoiding him.. i tink he knows dat... i juz hope he is not mad at me.. he prob wil b.. =(

SUE's Bday!!

Well v planned a surprise party 4 sue 2 day... n so much of misunderstandings!! her bf left at 2 b4 v gt ter wit da cake... He made plans n din tell us!! HOW COULD HE!! its his gf bday!! n ever1 was pissed at ever1.. ppl gt da wrong info... n it havoc!! running here n ter wit secret recipe raspberry cheese cake!! da worst part is.. he told her v were givin her a surprise party n told her v were gonna go get da cake!! anyway v still celebrated her party.. it was quite fun.. da worst paart was wen sue din even get any cake on her face n I got da worst!!! all over!! tey stuffed it in2 my NOSE!! anyway it was lots of fun !! totally enjoyed it though da misunderstandings earlier!!...

MAth Paper!!

I cant belive it!! i only gt a 49/60 for math paper 2!!! DATZ Seriously bad!! 5 careless mistakes!! n i 4 gt 2 answer sum questions!!! DAMn my total marks is oni 86 n there r ppl hu r scoring 99/100!!!

What Should I do???

Im sorta in a confused, stupid, unsure feeling rite now... N yes.. its cuz of a guy.. AD... Well it sorta an on9 thing... v met n clicked.. he is like 6 yr older than me... things were ok 4 da 1st few months.. till now i tink what should i do?? do i wan tis?? He was reli nice... He was there wen i needed him.. comforting me.. encouraging me.. i havent met him in person yet.. bt im thinking twice.. should i or should i not?? I have a feeling he is cheating on me... i noe he flirts with other girls at da moment.. im not sure how serious he is taking this.. once i told him im gonna leave him.. n he gt pissed.. n sad.. he talked me bak 2 b bein wit him.. is he playing wit me or is he 4 real?? Should i get in2 tis or not... i dunno.. so confused...

TriALz Ova...

Trialz r over... ended yesterday... n so fast i gt most of my results... they were much better than expected.. THANK GOD!!! wierdly i hav tis urge 2 study 2 day... wierd bt true... n thankz 2 Siu wern.. im stuck 2 da Potential break up song... XD listedned 2 it more than 25 times over n over again.. not getting bored of it yet... hehehehe....

PMR Trialz

Well im supposed 2 b studyin 4 my trials rite now... bt since im not its gonna b a late nite 4 me i guess... i juz wanna noe y do trials make people so tensed up?? its like its gonna b the end of the world.. i was seriously worried when i passed up the wrong paper 4 my BM ... bt when i told my mum she was freaking.. n i taught i was freaking... i hevnt studied a bit of geography,science nor KH..

im so headed for doom..

haizzz... how i wish i could juz suck eduation in my brains without havint 2 study datz will make like 100x easier!!