Looks Like i cant stay away...

well im not supposed 2 come on9.. but well.. how can i stay away.. terls lotz of thing 4 me 2 tell.. 1st lets start wit AS.. well.. he is a reli nice guy.. till i stoped smsin him.. told him earlier though i wun b able 2 cont smsin him tis often.. now abt AD.. well he is ok i guess bt a lil stressed up wit work.. he is reli nice n caring .. bt ters 1 thing dat i juz cant seem 2 accept.. He likes 2 talk a lil dirty sumtimes.. i get it he is a guy n stuff lidat.. he needs 2 release tension.. bla..bla..blaa.. everytime i tink abt him.. his nice-ness.. all da thing dat i dun quite like abt him juz flies away frm my mind.. I even dreamt abt him twice.. everytime he starts a converse i dun like i jzu say i gtg n leave.. though he has a very strong aura 2wards me.. he is like my magnet.. i can juz cant seem 2 saty away frm him.. bt da thing is.. v hav a very big age gap.. n im afraid dat he mite nt like me wen he meets me.. stuff lidat.. i even satrted thinking abt da future.. n wondering wil i b able 2 hav a happy life?? can he support me financially?? will my parents approve of him?? many questions run in my head.. at tis point my parents dun wan me 2 hav a bf.. datz preety obvious cuz v were on da way bak frm tution n my mum satrted saying things like all prob satrts wen u hav a bf.. n my dad says watz da use of havin a bf at tis age.. n my goes like.. it bring lots of prob..emotional probs.. n stuff lidat... well wat she says is rite.. bt u noe wen ur at dis age.. u tend 2 hav crushes n wen all ur frenz hav bf.. it gets reli akward wen ur da 3rd person n all ur frenz r wit their pair.. n datz da time u feel like watz wrong wit me?? Why dont i get 2 hav sum1 lidat 4 me..? Well da feeling juz reli sucks.. Well come 2 tink of it.. da ppl hu do well in studies in skool dun seem 2 hav a partner.. so i guess mayb its true.. u can concentrate more.. Bt wen i told AD dat i cant consentrate in studies if i was his gf.. he told me dat wen u hav a partner, tey wil alwiz b ter 2 support u.. b ter 4 u.. n u wil wana prove 2 em ur worth it.. n make em proud.. wat he says is also so true.. N i seriously duno if he is reli serious wit me.. arghh.. hating tis so badly..