Sadifiying?

Watz wrong wit me?? i feel like a total mess wen im not.. i feel like a total screw up.. i feel like da whole world is opposing me.. i dun feel wanted no more.. I feel lonely wen im not.. Im getting jelous wen im not supposed 2.. im crying 4 all da reasons dat dun make no sense.. im isolating myself.. is it cuz i need dat sum1 special ter 2 hold me up?? Y dun i feel rite?? is it cuz almost every1 has sum1 xcept me?? Y do i even bother?? I am causing my own pain.. Y am i doing tis?? wats wrong wit me.. Y dun i feel rite.. ters sumthing missing frm me.. I feel like i lost da world 2 sumthing... I feel like my life is falling apart.. Watz goin on?? I reli need sum1 4 me.. not my frenz n family.. cant seem 2 open up 2 em.. tey prob think i gona nutz or sumtin.. N mite juz leave me alone.. I dun like bein alone.. Wers da person u need wen u need him?? Why cant i find him yet?? Y hav i been attracting all da wrong guys 2wards me?? M i dat desperate?? Broken Inside.. Bt on da outside i neva show it.. though sumtimes i seem 2 b in my own world.. bt i can go nutz at times.. bt yet.. da sadness in me juz dosent seem 2 go away.. or is dis all cuz da exames r so close??? GOD PLEASE HELP ME!!!