My Sweet a Little X-RATED sweet 16

well its been awhile since i blogged.. very bz laa.. anyway here's da latest scoop on me.. well i celebrated my bday on da 19 of April.. n well it was way more than i xpected it 2 b.. V all had bbq 4 dinner.. all gals were dressed up in dresses.. i mean every1.. i even gt mei 2 wear a dress..(my mums) i gt ines 2 wear a dress .. ( my sistaz) gt ju yi 2 wear a dress.. kononnya she had no dress so i lend her mine.. so wer was da fun?? hmm it all started wit da spin da bottle game.. well biasa lerr.. hu suggested it.. it was like so overrated 4 16 yr old ppl (malaysians esp) =p lets c da hot parts of it.. - I kissed ranjali on de lip.. - Ines cat walked -Boon Aun wore a dress - foofy wore a dress ( one of da sexiest, low cut dresses dat i have.. which is reli low n i neva wore cuz its juz 2 revealing.. n he even stuffed tissue paper 2 make boobs xD) -Logan Kissed ranjali (very WILD n HOTT) -Ju Yi Kissed Boon Aun -Kuhan Kissed Suzanne ( DAMN SEXY N SENSUAL) -Lee Moon Walked -Ravinder n his gf danced.. fyi.. all da kisses were on de lips.. xD n each kiss was min 5 sec.. kinda short la huh.. xD hmm wat else.. dance floor.. like mangkuk oni.. me n ju yi like gone wild.. n boon aun gt "HOT" watching ju yi dancee.. xD while we were dancin.. on my right was ravinder n his gf bugz my back.. suzanne n kuhan n my left ranjali n logan... ALL MAKING OUT!! hahahahha damn fun laa HAZWAN U MISSED OUT A LOTTT!!! oh yea.. no tellin any1 abt wat happened.. cuz no1 is supposed 2 kno xD

innie minnie miney more

I dun feel good.. feeling very useless.. i feel like cutting my wrist.. or taking 2 many panadols at 1 time.. or drinking alcohol.. or doin otha stupid things.. innie,minnie,miney,more...

Stress list

I cant stand it.. i cant stand seeing logan n ranjali da way they are right now.. logan is reli going through a lot.. his family is giving him a reli rough time.. ranjali is avoiding him at any cost.. one day they are ok.. n da nxt they are not.. ranjali is also goin through a rough time.. teachers in skool are still talking abt them although its an old story.. Logan is goin nutz.. he is taking 2 many pills so far its a 142.. he hasnt slept in 3 day... he is getting me reli worried.. Ranjali is scared of logan afta da incident at de stairs.. she thinks of him as her bro.. Both of em are goin through a lot. i reli hope they can solve it.. ranjali need a change of air.. i told her 2 tell logan dat she needs a break cuz she reli does need it.. she has gone through a lott n so has he... Ranjali thinks she is not good enuf 4 Logan.. bt 2 logan , ranjali is everything.. Ranjali tells me i understand logan btr n he says i giv btr ans wen he asked wat will u do if im gone.. she told him she dosent know.. n i told him not 2 scare me cuz it is reli scary.. juz da taught of it made me wana cry.. i told him dat.. i shouldnt hav.. i tink i shud go a lil more distant frm logan... bt im afraid 2 leave him juz lidat.. cuz no1 actually can reli talk 2 him xcept 4 kuhan n me.. Logan is a very gud fren of mine.. i dun wan ranjali 2 misundertand.. i hope she dosent.. im juz trying 2 help them out.. i reli am.. haih..im so stressed out STRESS LIST 1) speech 2)debate 3)YE presentation 4)my tution add math test this mon 5)YE 6) ranjali n logan 7) my studies 8) skool -cuz im not in class during da last 3 periods 9)i dun feel like celebraitn my bday... bt every1 seems 2 b syked abt it xcept me.. 10) i cant seem 2 concentrate in anything im doin 11) im nt able 2 eat right 12) im getting fat 13) I have 2 oraganize myself,my room,my desk, my book shelf.. n everything else...

like youll never see me again

LIKE YOULL NEVER SEE ME AGAIN If I had no more time No more time left to be here Would you cherish what we had? Was it everything that you were looking for? If I couldn't feel your touch And no longer were you with me I'd be wishing you were here To be everything that I'd be looking for I don't wanna forget the present is a gift And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me' Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed So every time you hold me Hold me like this is the last time Every time you kiss me Kiss me like you'll never see me again Every time you touch me Touch me like this is the last time Promise that you'll love me Love me like you'll never see me again Oh Oh Ohhhhh How many really know what love is? Millions never will Do you know until you lose it That it's everything that we are looking for When I wake up in the morning You're beside me I'm so thankful that I found Everything that I been looking for I don't wanna forget the present is a gift And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me 'Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed So everytime you hold me Hold me like this is the last time Every time you kiss me Kiss me like you'll never see me again(can you do that for me baby) Every time you touch me(see we don't really know) Touch me like this is the last time(see everyday we never know) Promise that you'll love me(I want you to promise me) Love me like you'll never see me again(like you'll never see me again)Ohhh ohhh ohhh ohhh ohhh