exams suck!!!

well i didnt reli have a good day at all yesterday.. had my bio paper 3 n chemi paper 1 n 2... lets start wit bio paper 3 laa.. well 1st off.. i didnt kno wat da paper was gonna b like.. all i knew was dat v have 2 plan this experiment.. n according 2 my teacher v hav done da experiments b4.. well i was preety confident 4 da test.. as i taught hw hard cud it be.. n wen i sat 4 de test .. thr was a structure question abt hypertonic,hypotonic n isotonic thing.. i was likeee CARPPPP i didnt read up on this!!! i tuaght it was juz based on da experiments v do... oh well screw da blardee paper.. nxt chemistry.... my chemistry aint dat good.. i dun understand chapter 3 n 4.. well actualy i do understanda da chapter bt i cant seem 2 answer any questions.. so i sat 4 da paper.. IT WAS SO FCUKIN HARDDDD.. it was hard 4 me laa.. ppl didnt reli think it was so hard.. i was so pissed at myself.. i cud only actually answer like 1/2 of da paper n 1/2 of those ans all i tembak... It was da 1st time i eva felt like this.. i felt like da stupidest person on earth.. weell nt exactly on earth bt in da whole of da school.. everyone looked like tey were doin alrite..like da paper was answerable.. n yes it was.. i was so pissed at myself.. looking at everyone do da paper while i juz stared blankly made me cry.. i couldnt help myself any longer.. i tried controlling myself as much as possible.. bt i couldnt.. tears juz kept on streaming.. thank god i sat by da window.. n was da last person in da row.. so no1 saw.. gawd.. im actually gonna fail a subject.. n wen i told ppl abt da paper.. they were like.. ahh.. u say oni laa u gonna fail.. bt u will get 70-80 or even 90.. that juz made me feel even worse.. gawd, juz imagine wen they giv out da marks.. probably i will b da lowest.. n wen every1 asks im gonna get like so..so.. sad..

N WHY DID THIS HAPPEN IN DA 1ST PLACE???

BECAUSE OF ME!!!!

i must redeem myself..

to do dat..

1) i think im gonna like limit myself 2 only usin da pc on sat n sundayz except if im doin um project ect.

2) wake up everyday by 4.30 n study..

3) only watch tv wen im eatin lunch / dinner..

4) study in da afternoon at lest 2 hrs a day..

n if i dun folo dat.. i get punished by myself

punishments dat i can pick frm...

1) 100 sit-ups / push ups

2) no usin da pc 4 da weekend

3) no tv for 3 dayz

4) no goin out 4 da week

5) no sweets, chocs, ice cream ect 4 da week

well cant think of anymore rite now.. will add more 2 it soon..

prolly i will juz do this till like all my grades r up.. all A's .. xD

need 2 discipline myself...

haishh..