This is it

I cannot take this any longer.. why so.. lets start at the begining went with Pn Tan this morning to collect the SPM results got the results.. i begin gettin afraid only 1 student managed 2 get all A1 there are others with straight A's but not A1 n the teachers keep telling us next year its going to be our turn if ppl like Amy and Lye Ken cannot get straight A1 whtas the posibility of me getting? n these people are smart n hard working even my cousin sister Stephanie gt 8A1 n 4A2 now im getting seriously worried.. this is making me so sad.. i need a change on top of that.. my parents add the pressure they tell me things indirectly please la i understand you know n who on earth can make a friggin study time table 8 months till the exam? if they can make aso.. who on eath can follow.. i am a spur of the moent kind of person my plans change everytime i do thing the way i like them i dont care if i fall asleep studying on my bed it dosent matter to me watz importnat is dat it entered my head cuz i even fall asleep on the study table so watz the diff i like to sleep n its my choice to make its my decision 2 sleep hw late i want n wake up what time i want to you DO NOT tell me sleep at 11 and wake up at 5 please.. dont cramp my style.. i sleep at 1.. and wake up at 5.30 i sleep in da afternon for an hour n thtatz just it i exercise wen i want to because i know my body needs it i know hw 2 deal with myself if you want to remind me yes you may but dont you tell me what to do datz all i ask from you