~DarK Ang3L~

Im Working!

2010-01-05T22:59:00.002+08:00

hahaha... its been quite a while since i last blogged.. i finally found the time to xD well SPM is over.. bt im still afraid im gonna fail my bible knowledge.. oh god please help meee... so yea.. 2 days after SPM i wen to love n life!! the best camp ever although i was missing my love ever so much.. what you expect.. no contact with the outside world for 7 days okay! but it was the best camp ever ever ever ever... after camp.. busy with x-mas prep my darling and i went through some rough times.. im glad its over.. i love him so much.. Nw,im working.. so yesterday was supposedly my first day.. except that i went.. and the supervisor there was like what shoes are you wearing? its black what just like u asked the blue blue all? its still black why dont you come back tomorrow? i can go buy a pair now? u sure? u got money not? yes yes.. so off i go.. and no shoes to be found.. i come back and... sorry la cant find the shoes.. nevermind laa.. eh kamu ajar dia table dulu.. so off i go learning the table numbers and all.. errr... can you come back tomorrow ar? my manager will scold you la.. ur t-shit got pink pink all (pink trimmings oni ok!) but its still white with a little pink cannot cannot must be fully white and go buy new shoes.. u know what i will just wear my school shoes.. can i? i not sure la.. u talk to my manager.. ok fine.. so now can you go home? yea.. how u goin? I'll find my way laa.. eh come back tomorrow ok! yea yea.. datang balik esok tau adik.. ok.. walks away sadly.. Eh make sure u come back tomorrow u know! no heart feelings ok.. i will i will.. i was so excite do go to work in the morning.. i dressed my best.. hadley wished me luck.. my love was still asleep.. he had a late night and after what had taken place.. i was so sad.. i walked out.. i felt like crying.. i rushed to the toilet.. but before i ever reached.. warm tears started flowing down my cheek.. (im not such a softie ok! blame pms.. it happens a lot) anyway..1st time crying in public.. went to the toilet.. sat there and cried like 15 min.. thank god hadley made me feel better.. he didnt know i cried.. thn my love called me too.. and i felt much much better.. too off the ridicolous hair do.. made myself look not like a mak cik! and off i went.. go jalan jalan.. go makan.. all alone.. but who da hell cares right! so yea.. after tht i went back.. went for an interview at starbucks.. they said they would call for a second interview.. so yea.. thats how my 1st day went.. wen to work again today.. was late.. 1 hour late.. but i called laa.. cuz i wen to the doctor because of the corn.. so yea.. 1st day of work was ok i accidentaly threw away 1 set of fork and knife.. hopefully no one notices .. :/ other than that.. it was all good =)

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2009-11-08T21:55:00.002+08:00

Im sorry blog im so lazy to update you

gaaah

2009-10-07T00:10:00.002+08:00

I HATE YOU BIOLOGY!

probably i should make you my bf then i'd spend more time with you and begin to love you

confirmation

2009-05-18T01:11:00.004+08:00

its been a while since i have updated my blog malas la xD and I have been really busy as well well theres been a lot going on since the last time i blogged.. so well here is the latest la.. confirmation camp and had my confirmation on the 3rd of May a memorable day for me =) here are some pics malas wana write da whole story xD

This is it

2009-03-12T19:05:00.002+08:00

I cannot take this any longer.. why so.. lets start at the begining went with Pn Tan this morning to collect the SPM results got the results.. i begin gettin afraid only 1 student managed 2 get all A1 there are others with straight A's but not A1 n the teachers keep telling us next year its going to be our turn if ppl like Amy and Lye Ken cannot get straight A1 whtas the posibility of me getting? n these people are smart n hard working even my cousin sister Stephanie gt 8A1 n 4A2 now im getting seriously worried.. this is making me so sad.. i need a change on top of that.. my parents add the pressure they tell me things indirectly please la i understand you know n who on earth can make a friggin study time table 8 months till the exam? if they can make aso.. who on eath can follow.. i am a spur of the moent kind of person my plans change everytime i do thing the way i like them i dont care if i fall asleep studying on my bed it dosent matter to me watz importnat is dat it entered my head cuz i even fall asleep on the study table so watz the diff i like to sleep n its my choice to make its my decision 2 sleep hw late i want n wake up what time i want to you DO NOT tell me sleep at 11 and wake up at 5 please.. dont cramp my style.. i sleep at 1.. and wake up at 5.30 i sleep in da afternon for an hour n thtatz just it i exercise wen i want to because i know my body needs it i know hw 2 deal with myself if you want to remind me yes you may but dont you tell me what to do datz all i ask from you

Nobodys Perfect

2009-03-02T15:44:00.003+08:00

perfection is what we want we try our very best to be the best we can we try so hard to reach our dreams and aspirations on the way there we lose the things we love as perfect humans who are imperfect, we never really realize what we have till we lose it There isnt much that can be done, fix it or move on it all depends on you you reached that diversion and you made a decision not knowing where it would end you keep moving forward then you wonder how would it be like if you took the other path So now how? turn back and you can see but is the path still there? has it already been covered by the leafs of fall? if it has, you end up in dissapointment and think what a stupid decision I have chosen my path and each day i still wonder what it would be like if i took the other

luka da tangan nampak berdarah luka di hati siapa yang tahu

My day

2009-02-27T21:31:00.003+08:00

Had my English oral today... 29/30. Im impressed, i only read my part like 10 minutes before i had to present.. didn't expect do well. My topic was blogging.. did it with Siu Wern, Liy anf Ju yi my part was the disadvantages.. it was kinda funny.. i was juz randomly talking any rap that came into my mind.. n i kept sayin the word sad.. owh owh.. i aslo accidentaly ripped my baju kurung on a nail.. and it had a huge perfect 90 degree tear xD yea.. sad right.. so i terpaksa jahit da part.. look like some beggar no money to buy baju aso .. so here is something i came up with during the time we had sum ceramah for math which i never payed attention to

Gloomy skies Rainy days It still doesn't seem to fade away I know i was wrong in every way Forgive me baby But its time to break away Like shattered glass Your heart falls to pieces Anger and rage has taken my place Where i used to dwell in your loving embrace

Love

2009-02-23T16:53:00.003+08:00

" Love is patient and kind; it is not jealous or conceited or proud; Love is not ill manared or selfish or irritable; Love does not keep a record of wrongs; Love is not happy with evil but is happy with the truth; Love never gives up; and its faith,hope and patience never fail"

it hurts me too

POsers

2009-02-04T15:25:00.004+08:00

I went to Pavilion with Steph,Elena n Evelyn during the school holidays.. We wanted to wacth Bride wars.. in the newspaper it was started 11.30 a.m so off we went to pavilion.. Went there.. "Sorry miss the movie is at 11.30 pm.." aduh.. it was only 10.45 am.. so maybe we taught KLCC ade la.. so off we went to KLCC.. when we reach there.. Bride Wars - 12.30 am n then i read a poster that said the opening day was the next day.. haih.. so we got bored.. and went for lunch.. then went shopping at Isetan.. we saw this t-shirt that was so cute.. all 4 of us wanted it.. so all of us tried it on with different colours.. finally none of us bought it.. lol we got bored of shopping at KLCC after awhile.. so off we went back to Pavilion.. we went boy scouting... n went posing around xD here are sum picz =)

Sunkissed

2009-01-26T17:36:00.004+08:00

What a long day it was.. My family and i went 2 PD yesterday.. Well since we were goin 2 da beach, my sistaz n i not forgettin my cousin sis wore swimsuits 2 da beach.. ya la.. i didnt feel like wearin t-shirt and shorts.. mana syok.. da baju will keep floating n so heavy.. no syok maynnn.. lol anyway.. we had our fair share of aproximately 4 hours of swimming and 2 hours of canoeing.. preety fun.. So yea.. Like i said .. we were in swimsuits like some wierdos.. bt others were in shorts and t-shirts.. so yea.. everyone looked at us.. we didt think it was preety big.. cuz like common la.. dun tell me u neva seen ppl in swimsuits.. so juz ignored every pair of eyes gazing at us.. then we proceded to go swimming.. we were playin quite deep in the water.. when suddeny.. a ball juz landed far..far away where even i couldnt stand.. there were these bunch og indian guys who juz accidentaly threw their ball 2 far.. since i could swim.. i decided to get it.. so Evelyn n i swam and raced to get it.. n u kno what they were sayin as we went to get it.. THEY CAN SWIM LA!! ONE IS THE MOTHER AND THE OTHER IS THE SON!! now i wonder who is the son?? lolx.. wierd people.. bt the guy who claimed the ball from me was kinda cute xD after that.. we decided to go coanoeing instead of the banana boat.. it was kinda fun.. my canoe had a hole in it.. didnt realize till evelyn n i were preety afr out int he sea n we were like

eh..er.. y so much water ar.. the boat samo like not balance.. damn.. i think bocor la..

we quickly paddled to the side which was far far away from the place we 1st started so we had 2 carry the heavy canoe n pour all the water out.. then we went back.. on the way back evelyn and i capsized.. it was funny... we went n bang into so many people.. while we were far out int he sea, it was so calm.. n the breeze.. ahhh.. damn niceeeeee... then we went 4 a walk as we were walking by the beach.. suddenly these bucnh of malay boys started to make noise.. we were like.. damn.. followed by the guys in da water.. they were all on the right side.. it went on.. everyone on the left side olso begin disturbing us.. DAMN.. EVERYONE .. i repeat.. EVERYONE ON THE BEACH was disturbing us it was so embarassing.. n fun.. bt embarrasing.. i tell u.. it was like.. all eyes on us 4.. i heart was telling me cover ur face..cover ur face.. bt my head was like.. ur not some star la.. lol so my head went like.. walk faster.. walk faster..RUN!! bt i didnt run la.. juz walked faster.. tryin 2 keep cool.. and da life guard had 2 blow the wistle to stop em.. hahaha it was so.. humiliatingly funny.. xD the shower.. OPEN SHOWER BABEH!! the gal nxt to me juz stripped.. she was hot la.. so it was alrite to bad FEMALES ONLY XD so yea.. i had a preety fun time.. tiring day tho

un-understandable

2009-01-24T23:03:00.004+08:00

haih.. ppl are just so hard to understand.. u try to be nice and go back to thing the way the were.. but people juz ignore your gazes.. its so obvious you look away when i look at you.. you can feel me looking at you.. but u pretend that im not... i can feel it.. n yet you can call me sombong..

its normal that i feel this way when your around

happy never after

2009-01-14T22:09:00.002+08:00

I hate you now.. I dont trust you nomore... You made use of me.. So thanks for the memory.. now stay away from me

Charlies Angels

2008-12-30T22:29:00.003+08:00

A beautiful morning it was today.. actually it was more of a normal one ..xD woke up not so early..about 8.30 ish.. took my bath ect.. n left for my mum's office.. Later my mum made me go to collect money.. which involves passing by segi college.. DAMN Knowing it was Tuesday today.. n i only usually run into Ravi on mondays.. i took the chance.. we walked from my mothers office.. the 3 of us.. looking like charlies angels.. as what people said arr.. not i say wan.. Elena with her new hair.. long white pants to go with her long legs and a nice t-shirt Evelyn in a white skirt n a black t-shirt.. and me.. in a pink top with a skirt.. xD so we reached our destination safely.. no sight of the enemy.. took the cash.. about 3 K in hand.. left.. n rite after we took our 5 th step.. OH DAMN.. ENEMY AT 12 O'clock!!! my sisters didnt notice.. but i did.. he was with his friends.. he saw me.. i saw his face.. his expression showed shame.. his friends were uttering sum words which couldnt be caught by me.. so yea im glad that went ok.. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ next.. since the hoodie shirt elena n i gave evelyn looked better on me.. n they havent got me an xmas gift.. they decided to give it to me.. so i got evelyn's hoodie t-shirt.. n i didnt have a present for her.. so since Stephanie was goin 2 KLCC 2 day.. n i can see her Mr Nicholas as well.. i decided to go.. so yea.. off we went to KLCC.. n we saw Mr N with stephanie.. he is kinda cute in a wierd way.. xD we juz met up with them n then went to do our thing.. n what a coincidence.. we met V.. just because i told him we will just be friends on x mas eve.. he was treating me cold on x-mas.. i wanted to wish him merry xmas.. he turned away.. wat can i do.. but he seemed ok today.. we said hi.. n smiled.. i hope i dont lose a good friend of mine.. =) ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ after or day.. we left my mums office.. n her car didnt hav enough pertol.. n there was a horrible jam.. so we decided to take the lrt back home.. it was rush hour.. instead of taking the putra.. we took star as its nearer to my house.. n it was soo.. EMPTY!!! at RUSH HOUR.. unlike the putra.. u wiil be like some sardine sandwich.. n u get the smell of sweat.. missed with deodrant.. n every other icky smell.. the star was quiet.. spacious.. all of us even got our own seats.. n there was still many empty seats.. wow ritee.. i kno xD

she was once beautiful on the outside and the inside wats left of her now is only outer beauty as her inner beauty continues to rot like corpse

BASTARD

2008-12-26T23:05:00.006+08:00

Its all so screwed up... i forgot the exact date la.. but it was one day b4 i was meeting up in pavillion for Hazwan's reunion thing.. It was a bad morning as it is.. the nite b4 was worse.. i only slept at 3.30 am or was it 4am.. taught i could sleep in the next day.. bt i was so wrong.. practically everyone was waking me up in the morning.. i was being waken up from 7am to 10 am.. hahahah it took them 3 friggin hours to wake me up.. xD n in that 3 hours.. i screamd.. shouted.. kicked.. on the fan closed the curtains..again.. n made my sister cry gawd i felt super bad.. all she tried to do was wake me up.. unknowingly she twisted one of my shoulder muscle.. n i called her stupid.. yeaa.. the three of us are kinda sensitive when it comes to this.. its only when our loved ones say things like this our hearts just cant handle it.. i know watz it like.. n im sorry i said it.. im sorry i made u cry.. i didnt mean to.. n i promise i will try to controll my temper.. datz the 1st strike of bad luck... next.. i went to the bank with my sisters.. on the way back i wanted to take a different route back.. but we didnt.. we walked pass segi college.. we were walking normally.. n all of a sudden.. out of the blue

"WEYH BABI"

n i turn around.. n guess who i saw.. R.A.V.I i was already having a bad day.. so i juz stuck my middle finger at him... OMG u should hav seen the shocked faces of his friends.. thn i just turned around and walked away. He came after me..

WHAT'S UR PROBLEM? NOTHING WHAT EMAIL ALL U SENDING ME?

i was so lost.. shocked.. my sisters were stunned.. 2 of his friends came to pried for this pull him back.. he kicked me.. YES HE FRIGGIN KICKED ME HE KICKED A GIRL HE KICKED HIS EX GF n i cant believe this was the guy i cried for once.. if only.. if only i had picked up self defence lessons.. i would hav screwed him up n with every kick n punch id let him know wat it was for 1) for kicking me 2) for cheating on me with two other girls 3) for calling me a bitch when u are the BITCH 4) for talking about my best friends chest.. when i had better ones 5) for being the worst boyfriend ever 6) because i felt like it.. the number 6.. will be a swift kick to the crotch.. DAMN.. fuck that bastard for embarassing me infront of everyone fuck him for kicking a girl fuck him because my sisters were there that fucking low fat ugly bastard.. DONT U EVER TRY TO TOUCH ME AGAIN OR I WILL MAKE SURE U PAY FOR IT!! after that i acted like everything was ok... like nothing every happened.. i told my sisters not to tell my parents.. n i told them he didnt manage to kick me.. bt he did.. i pretended the whole day.. holding my tears back.. laughing as if nothing happened.. but i couldnt take it no more.. i cried my heart out the whole night.. n thank you P n S for comforting me.. =) S .. although u know u are an idiot sometimes.. thank you for making me laugh

Babbleee..

2008-12-08T22:59:00.003+08:00

I was just thinking la earlier.. Just be yourself people say? How do you know if you are being yourself or not.. Lets say i was an alcoholic.. an alcoholic likes to drink.. i like drinking so i drink.. im being myself.. so why do i hav 2 be sent to rehab?? When i get a second chance.. i change.. wen i change does dat mean im not myself anymore? or have i become someone else? follow things people say.. does dat mean i am another person?? if you say see what you are when you are young.. our parents raised us up the way they wanted us to be.. so its not really who we are is it? im confusing myself..

Tagged

2008-12-08T22:02:00.002+08:00

1.First thing you wash in the shower?

- me?

2.What color is your favorite hoodie?

- white.

3.Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

- uhh.. i dun think id kiss the person again..

4.Do you plan outfits?

- sometimes.

5.How are you feeling RIGHT now?

- missing someone.

6.Whats the closest thing to you thats red?

- wrapping paper.

7.Do you say aim or a-i-m?

- aim?.

8.Tell me about the last dream you remember having?

- cant tell.. *hush hush*

9.Did you meet anybody new today?

- nah

10.What are you craving right now?

- nothing

11.Do you floss?

- sometimes

12.What comes to mind when I say cabbage?

- vegetable

13.When was the last time you talked on aim?

- few months back la

14.Are you emotional?

- sometimes

15.Would you dance to the taco song?

- watz a taco song?

16.Have you ever counted to 1,000?

- oh yea.. wen i couldnt sleep

17.Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?

- lick..

18.Do you like your hair?

- kinda

19.Do you like yourself?

- not reli..

20.Have you ever met a celebrity?

- yeah.

21.Do you like cottage cheese?

- ok la.

22.What are you listening to right now?

- breath of heaven.. *its for choir*

23.How many countries have you visited?

- does malaysia count? if it does 5.. if nt 4

24.Are your parents strict?

- hmm..i wouldnt say that

25.Would you go sky diving?

- sounds like fun..

26.Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?

- if he pays.. yea sure

27.Would you throw potatoes at him?

- Why throw potatoes? can feed the ppl with no food mayn.. i wouldnt anyway

28.Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?

- wrapper

29.Have you ever been in a castle?

- yep =)

30.Do you rent movies often?

- nah..

31.Who sits in behind you in your math class?

- the wall??

32.Have you made a prank phone call?

- its not A phone call.. is tonnes of em xD

33.Do you own a gun?

- water gun got la.. =D

34.Can you count backwards from 74?

- yep

35.Who are you going to be with tonight?

- gonna b with me,myself and my add math homework

36.Brown or white eggs?

- white.

37.Do you own something from Hot Topic?

- nah

38.Ever been on a train?

- yea

39.Ever been in love?

- im alwayz in love <3

40.Do you have a cell-phone?

- yeah

41.Are you too forgiving?

- sometimes.

42.Do you use chap stick?

- what are chap sticks?? i kno chop sticks..xD

43.What is your best friend doing tomorrow?

- i gt more than 1.. Celine will b in Beijing, Ines,Foofy,Ranjali,Suzanne goin 4 add math tution.. ju yi.. uhh no idea

44.Can you use chop sticks?

- yea.. bt i aint a pro

45.Ever have cream puffs?

- its soo.. creamy..

46.Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?

- yep

47.What was the last question you asked?

- u think my sister's hot?

48.What was the last CD you bought?

- HSM 3

49.Boys or girls?

- both?

50.What is your bus number for school?

- dunno xD

51.Is your hair curly?

- wavy.

52.Last time you cried?

- few wekks back or was it dayz.. wateva la

53.Ever walked into a wall?

- yea..hahahhaha

54.Do looks matter?

- it depends wen,wer n for wat

55.Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun?

- Werz dat?

56.Have you ever slapped someone?

- yep..

57.Favorite time of the year?

- CHRISTMAS!!

58.Favorite color?

- purple,pink,blue,black,white,turquoise

59.Are you sarcastic?

- sometimes.

60.Do you have any tattoos?

- no bt id like 2 get 1.

61.The last person you held hands with?

- my darlin sis.

62.Do you sleep with the TV on?

- sometimes

63.Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?

- nope.

64.Do you like your life right now?

- i dont know.. i think its ok la

66.How often do you talk on the phone?

- wen i need 2?

67.What is your favorite animal?

- cats,dogs.

68.What was the most recent thing you bought?

-ribbons for my x-mas tree

69.Do you have good vision?

- no i'm wearing glasses.

70.Can you hula hoop?

- i used to.. havent tried it in a long time

71.Could you ever forgive a cheater?

- i believe everyone deserves a second chance

72.Do you have a job?

- yea.. bein a daughter,sister,student,friend..ect..ect..

73.Can you handle the truth?

- yeah.. if it hurts.. id will take some time

74.What are you wearing?

- sweats

75.Have you ever crawled through a window?

- yep.. car window n school window xD

The Reason is beacuse..

2008-11-11T22:41:00.002+08:00

So why did i allow everyone 2 read my blog at 1st then no one?? 1) i do not kno if stalkers read it.. imma blog stalker 2.. so watch out u bloggers out there xD 2) didnt want others to kno wassup with my life.. 3) i am preety reserved.. 4) i juz wanted 2 write my heart out n not plan what to write before i write because i may offend some people.. 5) im too lazy 2 do editing.. datz why i didnt edit this blog xD since now its open.. probably you will kno me a lil more..

Tagged : Ju Yi

2008-11-07T15:05:00.004+08:00

1. What's the relationship of you and her/him? besties =D 2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him? pretty,tall,gorgeous,funny,happy go lucky,smart,emotional,loving 3. The most memorable things she/he have said to you: lets seee.. ur not fat laa.. like yea riitee 4. The most memorable things she/he had done for you: alwiz been there 4 me =) 5. If she/he became your lover, you will.. hmm.. i dun think dat would eva happen 6. If she/he become your enemy, you will... be sad tht we are enemies 7. If she/he become your lover, she/he has to improve on.. accepting the fact that she is NOT FAT 8. If she/he become your enemy, the reason is.. maybe because we agrued over something 9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is? pour ice water!! 10. The overall impression of him/her is... she is awsome 11. How do you think the people around you feel about you? dunno.. bt i think they dun reli like me 12. The character of you for yourself is? emoo 13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is? i get angered easily.. 14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is? nobody.. 15. For the people who care about you and likes you, say something about them. love you guys so much.. thank you 4 lovin me 2 =D

what are the chances i would find you?

Annual LEaders Dinner =)

2008-11-03T16:07:00.003+08:00

its been so long since i blogged.. wat can i do.. exams marr.. xD anyway exam sucked 2 da max especially SEJARAH!! gawd i think im gonna fail.. seriously.. afta dat on da 31 oct (HALOWEEN) we had our annual dinner. PAvitira Jega n I palnned 2 get dressed together bt i couldnt go so i met em there.. i was early.. sorta..hehe was there by 6.. Jega was supposed 2 b there by 5.. she oni came at 6.40.. looks wise.. 1) JEGA - lovely dress frm nichii,lookin like a sixties movie star,lovely curls 2) PAvitira - So preety.. lolevely natural curls, flawless skin, nice skirt 3) Ju yi - New blue dress.. less is more.. sweet lookin.. awsome hair 4) Siu wern - Air stewardess looking, very preety 5) Anthea - gone back to the eighties, tall,slim,slender looking 6)Foofy - alwiz lookin awsome, new piercing 7) Jia Li - SEXY babe, luv her style 8) Mei - alwiz lookin smart casual, producer,artist,photog look.. reli goes well on her 9) Lee - he looked good.. same shirt as pavitira.. looks like they both came together.. n new haircut.. dun think i didint notice xD

Jega, Pavitira n Me then decided 2 go to KLCC for awhile.. lookin like 3 dolls we walked 2 KLCC.. all in heels we ran across the roads.. n we had to stop at the divider.. totally got disturbed by some ppl in some cars.. ran across the road again.. walked in KLCC SUDDENLY! Jega's heels PUTUS!!! so we had to go around looking of glue.. Where do u look for glue at KLCC?? haih so i suggested cold storage.. mana tau ada glue.. xD no glue in sight.. n there i spotted this lil mag shop at the side.. n thak god we found GLUE.. bt da usual RM2 glue was Rm5.. wadya expect.. its KLCC!! xD so then we went to a cornner.. looking for a seat.. we went to the posh area where it was quiet.. fixed jegas heels n headed off back 2 Corus hotel.. too bad we didnt have time to get Vitras mascara.. we were about to cross the drop off lane at KLCC when suddenly this car came quite fast n totally slowed down infront of us n was staring at us like tak pernah nampak manusia likedat.. hahaha.. wat can we do... were too eye catching.. ;) ran Across the main road AGAIN.. had to be fast as we were late.. Jega n I were da emcees for the night.. we were late.. havent written the script..

were like gettin nervous.. started to sweat because of the running our hair was not as nice as before due to all the running across the street bt we made it.. wrote our script with the help of MEI.. we owe u 1 Mei =) n the day jus went on well so here are some picz =)

Respect..

2008-09-27T18:15:00.002+08:00

I have to say, i reli respect most of my guy friends.. especially, Kuhan, Samuel, Boon Aun, Ravinder.. well its surely not for their gangsterism or brains or anything like that. I respect them a lot because they know how to respect girls. they know where the border line is. Kissing and a little bit of petting. They can just cuddle there and not do anything wrong.. i was actually preety amazed. Unlike all the guys i know, all of them are perverts, including my existing bf S.. haih.. sometimes i just wonder, why dont i get guys like them, those who respect me.. a little bit of dirty talk is ok.. just not all the time, its because i will end up feeling like i am just wanted as your sex partner which dosent make me feel wanted or important even worse.. loved..

U guys made my day.. thankz a bunch

2008-08-29T22:05:00.003+08:00

went 2 times square 2 day .. oni me n pavitira.. it was quite fun actually.. n v saw this 2 guys.. well they were checkin pavitira out.. n i told pavitira nt 2 look bt she looked.. n he waved at her.. hahahahah... n like all da guys there were chekin out pavitira.. n everywer v turned.. v saw couples dating... that made me miss havin someone.. n pavitira had 2 add it on with steven.. so thn i went 2 da hotel.. n thn 2 da bank.. n pass segi college.. n u kno wat!!! i saw R!! my ex-bf... he put on weight maynn... saw him at d waffle stall.. OMG i think he recognised me.. n he tried 2 avoid looking at me at all causes.. n kept on turning away.. hahahahahahhahahahha.. dat was damn funny dohh..

Cold

2008-08-08T01:17:00.002+08:00

well my august test just ended today.. i screwed most of my papers.. >.< i wish i could do better though... went 4 librian meeting today.. i gt my rescent jawatan as the ketua seranta.. its like a so totally boring job.. i felt like resigning from being a librian... i think its more fun if i were just a normal student.. so i dont have duties to do and i can lead a normal student life... bt im still not sure if i should do it.. earlier today i was just so hyper... bt after i went to tution no idea why my mood juz changed.. i was like so the moody.. and its so cold today.. it rained for almost 3 hours!!! im cold!!

LOST MY HP!!!!

2008-07-28T22:30:00.003+08:00

sunway sales on saturday was ok laa.. very messy.. v lost rm50 frm our first customer de.. >.< color="#ff0000">"teacher i need 2 go clean up" - me " i wanted to go 1st!!" - J "both of u go togetha!"_mr B "EWWW NEVER!!"-J n me you made my day J!! after i went n cleaned up.. i was walking down da stairs.. pretending i was drinking water.. J didnt suspect a thing.. he juz made me show my hands to prove that i didnt have any more flour.. i did.. n afta i passed him.. i juz poured half da water frm my bottle unto his head.. wakakakakak im mean!! n i ran away n hid.. thank god my dad arrived before he came down.. xDDDDDD bad news 2day 2.. my mum juz limited my pc time 2 30 mins a day!! WTC riite!!! >.< ____________________________________________________________________ skool was ok today.. we made dough out of da flubber which had a hole on it.. xD made a lot of noise in class!! kena marah!! xD more like kena tegur laa

MR R

2008-07-09T20:43:00.002+08:00

haih.. i was just so pissed off wit Mr R yesterday.. It all started when he came in for Sivics class yesterday.. everyone was paying attention to him except for me n P both of us were giggling at the back.. so v gt scolded laa.. im not angry because of that because i know i deserve it.. What reli got on my nerve was when he just yelled at me n said he wanted to chase me out of class.. i was like so confused.. was he talking to me?? i didnt even do anything.. he thoses who went for YE the other day to form groups of 7.. so i was forming laa.. n i asked nadeem who else can we put in.. cuz we were short of 1 memeber.. so he said anthea. so i called out her name aloud once.. she didnt listen.. so i didnt bother.. thn nadeem kept on calling him like so many timess.. n P was laughin next to me hysterically i have no idea y.. we were both kind of hyper at that time laa.. n her high pitched loud laughter was like LOUD n all of a sudden.. dat man.. dat FCUKIN man.. he looked at me.. n said one more time u do that i will chase you out of class.. I was like gonna cry.. at the same time so pissed.. i was embarresed.. i hate that man!! stinky pants.. ugly hair... not a gentlemen.. idiotic fucker.. bastard!!

Choices..

2008-07-06T21:57:00.003+08:00

i have to make a choice.. boxing which means.. a LOTT of exercise.. totally exhausting... bt hot body.. can defend yourself.. loose weight fast.. modern dance.. must do a lot of scary things.. fun yoga painful very flexible.. relaxing.. so which 1 do i pick??

Adventure..

2008-07-06T21:34:00.002+08:00

Guess wat.. have i told you abt N?? well i cant remember so im gonna tell it laa.. so who is N u ask?? well N is this guy i met online.. he is 25.. he said he is an event manager.. he lives in rawang.. i gave him my hp number.. n like v are talking laa.. n my friends were kinda pissed i agve mynumber out.. >.< n worst part.. i met him.. i went out for lunch with him.. how?? FLASHBACK!! it was last friday.. and we were celebrating R's birthday on saturday.. so R n S planned 2 skip school on friday n go to KLCC then times square.. so they told me this on thursday n asked me if i was in.. i taught about it.. n since friday didnt rlei have any important subjects.. n i didnt want to sit for 2 period of history i decided to go too.. so the plan was.. R missed school wit her parents permission.. S,I,F n me serong.. turst me it was scary.. 1st time i was doin it. n i was already late for school.. n i was waling the opposite direction of everyone else.. walking towards projet.. N suddenly the rapid bus stops n the clerks n some teacher got off.. i juz ignored them and continued walking.. then i passed Shuba.. He stopped me and asked so many questions.. n he asked me for a dollar when he already had rm50 in his pocket.. according to R he said i looked so scared.. well i was.. just imagine.. what if someone spotted me.. or i got caught?? die laa!! anyway.. i made it to projet n somehow it felt like the longest scariest walk ever when its only 2 minutes away from school.. went to projet.. met up the rest.. changed.. took a cab.. went 2 BRJ had breakfast.. met R at de LRT station.. went to KLCC.. got bored.. didnt find what we wanted.. went to times square.. bought R her bday present.. I and S had 2 leave for school by 12.. ME on the other hand.. managed to get my mum 2 allow me to go to Times Square after school.. which ment i had till 4.30 =) so i followed F and I followed R to do her hair.. then F decided to do her hair too.. so i juz sat there.. smsin N.. n told him wer i was n wat i was doin.. n he said he wanted to meet me.. n i was like.. hmm.. R said its ok.. so ok laa.. i said fine.. we shall meet.. he came at 3.. we had lunch.. more like he had lunch n i had a drink.. n he looks more like 35 rather than 25.. even foofy said so.. we had an okey time.. well he was doing most of the talking.. i hardly talk.. xP not something new..xD he left about 4.15.. n i was supposed 2 already b at the monorail station bt i had to go change.. tell R n F i had to go.. then.. i had 2 get to PLayez 2 get the flip flop.. then by the time i left TS it was already 4.50.. so i was late.. n my mum kept calling.. i was so scared when i got into the car.. thank god i didnt spill anything.. so thats how i met N.. now i dunno hw i feel.. somehow i feel that there is something wrong.. like i cant trust him.. no idea y.. bt i just feel like that.. the most.. both of us only friends.. well that was 1 huge adventure for me in a day =D had loads of fun.. n took like a huge risk.. bt i would say it was so totally WORTH IT!!

2008-06-16T14:23:00.003+08:00

SHE FORGOT ME!!

2008-06-11T00:09:00.003+08:00

School juz started like yesterday.. 1st day.. gt my results...i screwed up my moral.. i gt like a 54.. n datz it.. OMG.. i so did not expect dat.. gt my physics paper also.. gt a 68.. i wanted an A!!! T.T oni gt a B today.. gt my history paper.. i gt like a 74.. which is ok laa.. thought i would do better though bt im thankful for an A laa.. i tell u theres this fren of mine.. blardee hell gt 87.. n complaining she is nt da best in class ect.. bla..bla..bla.. (dun get offended k if u terasa.. u kno hu u are n u kno i luv ya..xoxo) so annoying.. bt wen i complain a lil bit abt my otha subjects.. dats it.. i kena..ppl gt worse than u la.. bla..bla..bla.. anyway YE was ok 2 day.. n guess wat my mum actually 4 got 2 pick me up frm school.. she was supposed 2 pick me up at 4.15.. so i waited.. till like 5.. cuz i taught u kno laa.. rain.. in KL jam n all.. so was juz sittin thr doin my hw.. it was like 5.30.. n she wasnt thr.. n both da public phones were out of order.. thank god i managed 2 borrow suganya's mum's hp.. n made a call.. called my mum.. no 1 answered.. i kinda gt worried.. called her again.. no1 answered.. thn i called my dad instead n asked him werz my mum n y isnt she answerin her hp.. turns out she totally 4 gt abt me.. like OMG.. she can actually 4get she has a daughter 2 pick up frm school.. so i only left school at like 5.45.. n i HATE sitting alone doin hw for such a LONG timee.. wen she came i asked her y late.. bla..bla..bla.. i kinda raised my voice laa.. so she was like y couldnt u call bla..bla..bla.. told her da phones were out of order.. n she was like scolding me 4 her fault 4 nt picking me up.. she was like u couldnt call me earlier is it?? couldnt u go somewhere n call me?? HOW WAS I SUPPOSED 2 KNOW SHE CAN FORGET 2 PICK UP HER OWN DAUGHTER FROM SCHOOL WHEN I TOLD HER IN DA MORNIN WEN I GT OUT OF DA CAR!! Looks like her job is more important 2 her than me already now.. hate it.. suckz like crap.. i gt like so hurt.. she was scolding me 4 her mistake.. for forgetting 2 pick me up.. wat will happen if sumthing happened 2 me?? prolly it shud.. at least she will realize..!!

W.A.I.T

2008-06-02T22:41:00.002+08:00

went 4 this WAIT weekend on friday, sat n sunday.. well i didnt wana go at 1st.. bt i was forced 2 laa.. so i went.. it turned out preety well n i actually enjoyed my selff.. loved a band!! AWSOMEEE made like tonnes of frenz.. learned a lott.. had fun.. stay pure.. datz da summary.. xDD well here is how da whole thing went.. v shall start wit friday laa.. went thr.. looking 4 da place.. v actually found it at 1st.. its on da second floor.. tilll i saw da word MATH MONKEY.. n i was like no laa.. cant b this place.. so i made my mum go anotha round.. turned out dat was da place.. so my sis n i went up.. well i was actually expecting a bigger crowd.. more like 200 ppl or so.. bt it was more like 50 ppl.. da place was kinda small.. bt ppl were really friendly.. so v had a few songs b4 startin.. thn v started with.. sex.. n dating.. bla..bla..blaa.. QnA sessions n stuff lidat.. on saturday.. mornin was like normal.. v had more talks.. abt hw men get sexually aroused.. n how girls trade sex 4 love while men trade love for sex.. n datz y most girls usually give in.. its reli sad.. thn v had this talk on abortion.. this person C gave her testimony.. she had 2 abortions b4.. n was a party animal.. she said docs oni say its gonna b a blob of blood oni.. wen it was 2-7 weeks.. bt it wasnt.. she showed us da pics.. she showed us da way these unboen babies r MURDERED.. i couldnt stand no longer.. those beautiful creations.. the way they r murdered.. it so horrible.. tears juz rolled out of my eyes.. hw can ppl actually do dat.. according 2 C.. wen da baby is abt 3 mnths.. they remove by burning it 1st.. n da poor innocent baby will b moving violently in da mothers womb.. n da mother can actually feel it.. how can ppl b so heartless.. do u kno dat 1.3 babies r bein killed in 1 second.. n its da highest rate of death.. how can ppl b so cruel?? taking away life of innocent babies.. they didnt get a chance 2 c wat da world is.. they dun even get a chance 2 say that they wana live.. n da mothers.. dun they eva think.. watz my baby gonna look like.. wat will i name it??.. ect.. wount they eva think?? they r just MURDERERS!! on sunday.. v had a short talk on da 12 stps ppl go through b4 having sexual intercourse.. u kno frm da 1st time da guy n gal meets.. n so on laa.. n v also learned dat.. loving someone is not all abt bein lovey dovey.. n eva so cuddly.. bt its abt companionship.. a marraige cant last if its hold on on just love.. bt they must also love each othas companionship.. n also 50% of ppl hu have sex b4 marraige have marraiges dat oni last up to 3 yrs.. so stay chaste.. be puree.. enjoy sex wit da 1 u reli love n gonna live wit da rest of ur life.. make dat something joyous... something special 4 dat special someone.. so i took the vow.. 2 remain chaste till da day i get married.. as a symbol of dat i have a ring on my wedding ring finger n can only replace it wen i get married.. n im sure i will nt regret it.. =)

exams suck!!!

2008-05-16T13:40:00.003+08:00

well i didnt reli have a good day at all yesterday.. had my bio paper 3 n chemi paper 1 n 2... lets start wit bio paper 3 laa.. well 1st off.. i didnt kno wat da paper was gonna b like.. all i knew was dat v have 2 plan this experiment.. n according 2 my teacher v hav done da experiments b4.. well i was preety confident 4 da test.. as i taught hw hard cud it be.. n wen i sat 4 de test .. thr was a structure question abt hypertonic,hypotonic n isotonic thing.. i was likeee CARPPPP i didnt read up on this!!! i tuaght it was juz based on da experiments v do... oh well screw da blardee paper.. nxt chemistry.... my chemistry aint dat good.. i dun understand chapter 3 n 4.. well actualy i do understanda da chapter bt i cant seem 2 answer any questions.. so i sat 4 da paper.. IT WAS SO FCUKIN HARDDDD.. it was hard 4 me laa.. ppl didnt reli think it was so hard.. i was so pissed at myself.. i cud only actually answer like 1/2 of da paper n 1/2 of those ans all i tembak... It was da 1st time i eva felt like this.. i felt like da stupidest person on earth.. weell nt exactly on earth bt in da whole of da school.. everyone looked like tey were doin alrite..like da paper was answerable.. n yes it was.. i was so pissed at myself.. looking at everyone do da paper while i juz stared blankly made me cry.. i couldnt help myself any longer.. i tried controlling myself as much as possible.. bt i couldnt.. tears juz kept on streaming.. thank god i sat by da window.. n was da last person in da row.. so no1 saw.. gawd.. im actually gonna fail a subject.. n wen i told ppl abt da paper.. they were like.. ahh.. u say oni laa u gonna fail.. bt u will get 70-80 or even 90.. that juz made me feel even worse.. gawd, juz imagine wen they giv out da marks.. probably i will b da lowest.. n wen every1 asks im gonna get like so..so.. sad..

N WHY DID THIS HAPPEN IN DA 1ST PLACE???

BECAUSE OF ME!!!!

i must redeem myself..

to do dat..

1) i think im gonna like limit myself 2 only usin da pc on sat n sundayz except if im doin um project ect.

2) wake up everyday by 4.30 n study..

3) only watch tv wen im eatin lunch / dinner..

4) study in da afternoon at lest 2 hrs a day..

n if i dun folo dat.. i get punished by myself

punishments dat i can pick frm...

1) 100 sit-ups / push ups

2) no usin da pc 4 da weekend

3) no tv for 3 dayz

4) no goin out 4 da week

5) no sweets, chocs, ice cream ect 4 da week

well cant think of anymore rite now.. will add more 2 it soon..

prolly i will juz do this till like all my grades r up.. all A's .. xD

need 2 discipline myself...

haishh..

inconciderate bastards!!

2008-05-12T23:44:00.002+08:00

Eeessshhh.. I am so effing pissed.. wat am i pissed abt u ask.. well thrz a funeral goin on like 2 houses away frm mine.. u kno 1 of those chinese funerals.. so bising1.. well i sleep like a log.. n my room is far 2 the back.. so i dun reli care abt dat.. its their customs and i respect that.. bt wat reli gt on my nerve was.. wen i juz was gettin home frm fetching my sistaz frm tution.. v reached like da front of our lorong.. datz wer all da prob starts.. this blardee idiot parked her car till v cant even enter da jalan.. ok.. so v waited thr.. there were sum ppl outside so v flashed da lights a few times.. they turned n looked n thn buat duno.. 10 min passed n i was getting restless.. thn v asked a guy workin thr 2 ask da owner 2 remove da car.. he wen 2 get da owner.. so v waited.. no owner came.. i gt reli..reli pissed common laa ppl be conciderate.. its nt like thr isnt any parking on da outside.. ppl live here u kno.. goin 4 a funereal isnt a very big thing.. da worst part.. i havent finish studying add math..!! so i juz left da car.. iw alked towards my hse lookin so pissed.. n i was like like talkin 2 my self reli loud...

"STUPID INCONCIDERATE PPL MOVE UR BLARDEE CAR!!

HOW LONG DO U WNAT US TO WAIT!!!"

i gt in2 da hse.. i kinda slammed da grill a lil hard..

n da door.... at leats i gt some attention!!

n still da blardee arsehole didnt move her car.. my mum waited like almost 30 mins 2 get da bitch 2 move her car..

my dad gave her off.. he was like

"can u not b so inconcidetae next time.. ppl live here..

how long do u want us 2 wait 4 u 2 move ur car??"

my mum added on

"ppl need 2 sleep n go 2 skool u kno.. its already 11.30p.m!"

If i knew my parent were actually gonna wait 4em.. i shud hav juz gone out n went 2 da lady hu was standing thr talkin hu actually is da daughter of da woman hu passed away n told her like

in a lil harsh tone

"EXCUESS ME, can u get da owner of da car 2 move their car..

cant u see v have been waiting here 4 so long mins n falshing

da lights at u to get da owner 2 move da car?? how long more do u want us 2 wait???"

i wud hav actually did it.. thank god i was not stil in da car..

jeez this ppl.. my mum n da otha residents all pakat de.. all gonna park da car outside..

along da road.. leave thm no space 2 park.. NOW GO FIND UR PARKING!!!

STUPID PPL!!!

My Sweet a Little X-RATED sweet 16

2008-04-28T15:59:00.002+08:00

well its been awhile since i blogged.. very bz laa.. anyway here's da latest scoop on me.. well i celebrated my bday on da 19 of April.. n well it was way more than i xpected it 2 b.. V all had bbq 4 dinner.. all gals were dressed up in dresses.. i mean every1.. i even gt mei 2 wear a dress..(my mums) i gt ines 2 wear a dress .. ( my sistaz) gt ju yi 2 wear a dress.. kononnya she had no dress so i lend her mine.. so wer was da fun?? hmm it all started wit da spin da bottle game.. well biasa lerr.. hu suggested it.. it was like so overrated 4 16 yr old ppl (malaysians esp) =p lets c da hot parts of it.. - I kissed ranjali on de lip.. - Ines cat walked -Boon Aun wore a dress - foofy wore a dress ( one of da sexiest, low cut dresses dat i have.. which is reli low n i neva wore cuz its juz 2 revealing.. n he even stuffed tissue paper 2 make boobs xD) -Logan Kissed ranjali (very WILD n HOTT) -Ju Yi Kissed Boon Aun -Kuhan Kissed Suzanne ( DAMN SEXY N SENSUAL) -Lee Moon Walked -Ravinder n his gf danced.. fyi.. all da kisses were on de lips.. xD n each kiss was min 5 sec.. kinda short la huh.. xD hmm wat else.. dance floor.. like mangkuk oni.. me n ju yi like gone wild.. n boon aun gt "HOT" watching ju yi dancee.. xD while we were dancin.. on my right was ravinder n his gf bugz my back.. suzanne n kuhan n my left ranjali n logan... ALL MAKING OUT!! hahahahha damn fun laa HAZWAN U MISSED OUT A LOTTT!!! oh yea.. no tellin any1 abt wat happened.. cuz no1 is supposed 2 kno xD

innie minnie miney more

2008-04-05T00:21:00.002+08:00

I dun feel good.. feeling very useless.. i feel like cutting my wrist.. or taking 2 many panadols at 1 time.. or drinking alcohol.. or doin otha stupid things.. innie,minnie,miney,more...

Stress list

2008-04-04T23:54:00.002+08:00

I cant stand it.. i cant stand seeing logan n ranjali da way they are right now.. logan is reli going through a lot.. his family is giving him a reli rough time.. ranjali is avoiding him at any cost.. one day they are ok.. n da nxt they are not.. ranjali is also goin through a rough time.. teachers in skool are still talking abt them although its an old story.. Logan is goin nutz.. he is taking 2 many pills so far its a 142.. he hasnt slept in 3 day... he is getting me reli worried.. Ranjali is scared of logan afta da incident at de stairs.. she thinks of him as her bro.. Both of em are goin through a lot. i reli hope they can solve it.. ranjali need a change of air.. i told her 2 tell logan dat she needs a break cuz she reli does need it.. she has gone through a lott n so has he... Ranjali thinks she is not good enuf 4 Logan.. bt 2 logan , ranjali is everything.. Ranjali tells me i understand logan btr n he says i giv btr ans wen he asked wat will u do if im gone.. she told him she dosent know.. n i told him not 2 scare me cuz it is reli scary.. juz da taught of it made me wana cry.. i told him dat.. i shouldnt hav.. i tink i shud go a lil more distant frm logan... bt im afraid 2 leave him juz lidat.. cuz no1 actually can reli talk 2 him xcept 4 kuhan n me.. Logan is a very gud fren of mine.. i dun wan ranjali 2 misundertand.. i hope she dosent.. im juz trying 2 help them out.. i reli am.. haih..im so stressed out STRESS LIST 1) speech 2)debate 3)YE presentation 4)my tution add math test this mon 5)YE 6) ranjali n logan 7) my studies 8) skool -cuz im not in class during da last 3 periods 9)i dun feel like celebraitn my bday... bt every1 seems 2 b syked abt it xcept me.. 10) i cant seem 2 concentrate in anything im doin 11) im nt able 2 eat right 12) im getting fat 13) I have 2 oraganize myself,my room,my desk, my book shelf.. n everything else...

like youll never see me again

2008-04-03T17:40:00.002+08:00

LIKE YOULL NEVER SEE ME AGAIN If I had no more time No more time left to be here Would you cherish what we had? Was it everything that you were looking for? If I couldn't feel your touch And no longer were you with me I'd be wishing you were here To be everything that I'd be looking for I don't wanna forget the present is a gift And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me' Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed So every time you hold me Hold me like this is the last time Every time you kiss me Kiss me like you'll never see me again Every time you touch me Touch me like this is the last time Promise that you'll love me Love me like you'll never see me again Oh Oh Ohhhhh How many really know what love is? Millions never will Do you know until you lose it That it's everything that we are looking for When I wake up in the morning You're beside me I'm so thankful that I found Everything that I been looking for I don't wanna forget the present is a gift And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me 'Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed So everytime you hold me Hold me like this is the last time Every time you kiss me Kiss me like you'll never see me again(can you do that for me baby) Every time you touch me(see we don't really know) Touch me like this is the last time(see everyday we never know) Promise that you'll love me(I want you to promise me) Love me like you'll never see me again(like you'll never see me again)Ohhh ohhh ohhh ohhh ohhh

no comments.. xD

2008-03-30T22:33:00.001+08:00

hmm.. i juz hate this part of de mnth.. well more like this part of every month.. yes i guess u think u noe da reason.. well part of it is right though..n da otha part.. well i get reli angry 4 da littlest thing.. i get annoyed.. i get so tensed up.. n my mood reli swings.. i get bored VERY fast.. i can be extremely happy at one minute n da nxt b like depressed.. i think im having sumkinda disorder.. GOD PLEASE HELP ME!!.. i try 2 cool my self down as much as possible.. take a lotttttt of deep breaths.. stay away frm ppl dat annoy me a lott.. esp my sis n my mum.. i need things 2 b done right n proper n fast.. n not take ur own sweet time.. n feel like im so pressusised at de moment.. parents expectation.. sumtimes i juz feel like.. wat da heck is life for?? today my cuz came ova.. she juz finished studying 2 b a doc.. n my mum wants me 2 b a doc.. she has 2 like stay awake for 40 hrs n da hosp.. n exam everytime.. n wen exam u dun even noe wat sub is on dat day.. u hav 2 go 2 campus n they will cabut undi 2 c which sub is on dat day.. i think is a real waste of time studying 2 b a doc.. i know its reli respectable..bla..bla..bla.. wateva laa.. its juz nt 4 me.. i CANT keep studying 4 de REST OF MY LIFE!! so nt my thing... my life has gotta b like sumthing i like 2 do.. i think i wana venture into business.. wat biz??.. i aint kno yet.. i dun wana live da rest of my life working.. i wana young n successful.. i wana retire early.. i wana travel da whole world.. i wana hav a few houses.. one in town, 1 by da beach n da otha in a hill sumwhere by a lake.. well those r juz dreams.. 2 make it a reality will b sumthing hard 2 do.. =(

unbelieveable

2008-03-20T01:19:00.002+08:00

guess wat.. JOEL ACTUALLY HAS A GIRLFRIEND!! N SHE IS CHINESE (nt so hot though.. =P) well im not supposed 2 tell so i blog lorrh.. nobody can read.. hehehehe xD

Suckey form 4

2008-03-20T00:49:00.002+08:00

Well.. waht can i say about form 4.. its reli..reli hard.. wayy harder than anything i hav done before.. i have 2 learn to study everyday n finish my homework.. i seriously do not know how ppl can actually get 21 DARN A's!!!! i only have 10 subjects n im like sinking like the titanic ship already.. anf its only the begining of the year.. I actaually broke down in class today. anf ppl hu know me know i dun break down easily.. i was doin add math n i didnt seem 2 get a thing.. n my bm suckz.. n my physics.. i dun even know wat da teacher is teaching... chemistry is simple bt it dosent wana stay in my head.. lets not start abt bio.. gt a crappy teacher hu hates us like crap.. n i cant seem 2 get anything into my head.. im like freaking out here.. when i see students like anthea n pavitira.. they seem like they know everythig that they are doing.. it seems like its so easy 4 them.. when i seem them i feel like i dun fit in.. every1 is so hardworking.. i wana ask my mum 2 get me sum more tutuion.. mayb a private 1.. well i kno its expensive bt i need like real tution 4 like mayb a few months 4 me 2 get the momentum.. once i have it i can juz go on.. im like so stressed out rite now.. im like crashing.. i hav a play this friday.. i have 2 memorize my oral..bm project.. my bible class.. this stupid sickening perv fcker dat calles me every nite.. (need a new plan 2 get rid of him) GOD HELP ME!!! i feel like i seriously need a break.. like 3 dayz 2 nites will do.. juz go 2 mayb frasers hill or camerons.. stay thr alone.. away frm hp/internet.. juz some alone time.. where i wana do sum meditation.. helps me calm down.. go 4 a swim/jog/hike ect.. do sum studying.. well i seem 2 b losing hope.. bt if i dun buck up now.. im gonna loose it.. a part of me goes like "edna if they can do it why cant you?" "edna dun give up hope" "edna u have 2 change yourself 2 make a difference" "if u want a bright future.. juz hold on to it 4 just 2 yrs" " two yrs is nth compared 2 all da yrs in da future" "juz put a bit more of effort" well datz da motivating part of me.. da otha part goes like "edna ur such a failure.. you cant even cope with such little things" "ur a looser" "ur so stupid" "duno y u even live.. cause ppl lots of trouble oni.. better go die.. no use aso u live" well datz da negative side of me... once i even tried to cut my wrist.. bt then i taught my mum will kill me if she saw it.. so i taught cut my thigh laa.. cannot c.. wear longer pants.. i took de knife.. i know it will hurt.. so i juz imagined all de pain ect ect.. like i actually did it bt i didnt.. cuz thn will leave an ugly mark thr.. hehe not nice if i wear anything short.. xD

i SLAPPED him.. HARD!!!

2008-01-25T15:51:00.000+08:00

like OMG i slapped kuhan real hard infront of everyone till ppl hu were talking on da otha side juz turned n went like.. wooowww... n his face turned pale.. n da form 3 guy shaked his hands.. n he wanted 2 hit me bak laa bt he didnt... y did tis happen u ask.. well it all started afta skool.. at the canteen where v gather b4 v go home..thats when kuhan started 2 punch ranjali real hard.. it was real hard ok.. n she gt so pissed she yelled at him n walk 2 da otha side of the canteen.. n kuhan went like started laa.. DRAMA.. n wen 2 get her.. he brought her bak n he was still punching her.. i could see it in frm her voice it reli hurts. she kept asking him 2 stop.. bt no he continued..like common laa she is a gal.. u punch her fine.. if she says it hurts.. stop lahh.. then i asked him 2 stop n gav him a punch.. he slapped me ok (not so hard laa cuz i sorta moved ).. after that.. i seriously dont know wat got in2 me.. i was like not me anymore i juz went there n gave him a tight slpa on da face.. it happen in like a milisecond.. n even i was like stunned for awhile after i slapped him.. ranjali pulled me back afta dat.. N v quickly left 2 change 2 our P.J clothes.. n i was like feeling so guilty n scared at the same time.. i didnt mean 2 slap him so hard..i seriously didnt know what got in2 me.. like why did i slap him?? cuz he slapped me 1st or cuz he was torturing ranjali.. y am i so protective over her if so?? haih.. >.< when i got home in the evening i sent an apologizing sms.. he didnt reply.. os i taught datz it laah edna.. he is gonna slap u 2mrw or he is not gonna talk 2 u.. so i decided 2 sms him again after 2 hrs.. n thank god he replied me.. he said it was ok n it was just a small matter .. i was like so relived when he said that.. =)

cannot.. cannot..

2008-01-19T22:46:00.000+08:00

Seriously.. i tink ju yi has a mind set problem.. she juz gave up her post as a prefect in school.. she wants to move 2 the next class.. and she wants 2 stop playing basketball.. reason behind this, PRESSURE.. she says she cannot cope with studies.. she cannot cope with basket ball n being a prefect all at once.. i mean like.. u hav a mind set dat says everything aso cannot and u hav no faith n confidence in yourself.. you will never achive things that you want in life.. nobody said u hav 2 study 24/7 juz 2 get the string of A's dat everyone wants.. if dat guy kelvin i tink.. if he cud b so gud in his acedemic and kokurikulum why cant she??he was a badminton player, PBSM leader.. and he gt 13A1.. furthermore.. she knows her mum will be having sum financial problems.. n she wants 2 get a scholarship.. if she cant even do this.. how is she gonna compete wit the thousands out there that are also wanting scholarships.... ju yi.. ju yi.. im so worried abt you gal.. i reli am...

Stream of tears..

2008-01-07T19:28:00.000+08:00

I feel so cold, The temperature of my body is rising, Tears streaming down my cheek, Why are there tears?? Is sumthing wrong?? Is it cuz im afraid? Afraid of the future? Afraid ppl wud hav 2 move on wen time comes? Afraid dat we wouldnt last? or is it cuz of all the stress built up?? Wat am i gonna do wit my life in d future? Will i suceed?? Will i drown?? Will v stay 2 getha?? Wat m i trying 2 prove?? Watz wrong wit me?? Watz wrong... Emotional ups n downs.. every1 has them.. Down is wer i am rite now.. I miss u so much.. yes i do.. i miss ur hugs.. N i miss ur kisses.. Most of all I miss u being here.. I need u, n i want u here this instant.. i juz need u 2 wrap ur arms around me dat is all i ask 4.. N im sure everything will b alrite...

I miss u already <3

2007-11-30T05:57:00.000+08:00

haha i noe its like 2 minutes 2 6 am.. n i oni slept at 2 sumthin n i hav been awake 4 abt da pass hour or so...well i couldnt help myself frm blogging.. hahahaha.. last nite at d live n loud KL (lnlkl) hazwan wraped me aroud his arms.. he was so warm.. n i wished he wud never let go..i felt so loved.. so special.. n i luv him so much 2..more than words can eva say.. I cant stop feeling da way he touched me.. his hands were so delicate.. i wish u were here rite now..he kept me warm throught da concert.. for the 1st time im not rubbing both my hand n keeping me warm.. lol.. he also gave me this purple flower hair pin.. he even knew my fav colour without me telling him.. i was in cloud nine.. well i still am.. haha.. n ju yi knew how high i was.. hahaha..last nite was the best ever.. a nite which i will never 4 get with the 1 i love p.s : sry i din kiss u last nite.. i juz couldnt find the right moment.. i noe v spent a lot of time 2 getha bt ter juz wasnt the perfect moment yet...

watz happening 2 malaysia??

2007-11-29T01:20:00.000+08:00

i gotta ask.. watz happening 2 malaysia?? so much of racism... da HINDRAF thing dat juz took place.. well it ink it was right wat da indians stood up 4.. nowdayz v r not even given anything.. everything juz seems 2 b given 2 d malays.. sry if i ofended any1.. i dont intedn 2 .. bt its da truth.. 2day in d papers.. ter was news dat a cop was admited in da hosp.. n dat came out in d news.. y?? hmm well these stupid ..blaredd cops.. hit women n children. wat the hell rite.. tey din even do nth.. it was juz a gathering 2 show dat v 2 want our rights.. n da tear gas tey released.. it killed a peron wit asthma.. did all dat come out in d news.. NO!! tey try 2 cover up.. watz gonna happen 2 our country.. i used 2 b proud being a malaysian.. bt now.. no more.. ters so much of corruption goin on.. our belloved country is starting 2 ruin.. its reli sad 2 c this happening in our country.. i reli hope v can get peace soon.. i dun wan any war or anything happening..i want our country 2 b bak 2 da way it was once uopn a time.. like wen i was a kid.. i could go out n play n not b afraid of rapist..not afraid of being kidnapped.. times wen every1 lived in harmony.. now racism is everywhere.. in a skool of my friends.. da malay oni hang oyt wit d malays, da chinese wit da chinese n da indian wit d indian... v r all da same nside although our skin mite b diff colours.. i miss the old malaysia

I meow u <3

2007-11-29T00:14:00.000+08:00

i miss my love so much.. i cant wait 2 him 2mrw...well i was chatting wit sum1 earlier 2day.. n he sorta told me sum stuff which is true.. it was abt me n him.. well i noe v r frm different dinominations.. n well both our religion dont reli go well 2 getha.. bt i still love him so much.. n he loves me 2.. i noe if v cud make tis last.. ter wil b lots dat v will have 2 go through.. n v hav 2 face many chellenges.. it wil make a relationship grow stronger rite?? i noe i think waaaaayyyy 2 much.. well its cuz i wana noe watz it gonna b like in d future.. i wanna noe will this last?? cuz i noe getting hurt is so not nice..call me nutz bt i even imagined us living 2getha..doin da grocery shopping 2 getha..cooking.. goin 4 vacations.. sunset by the beach.. a nice candle lit dinner.. mayb sum wine.. a girl can fantasize rite??rite?? xD guess wat i gt my hair highlighted =D well it was cuz Prithy had done hers, her moms, both her maids n ter was so much xtra so i gt mine dyed 2 =D n both my sis aslso joined in da fun.. well its burgundy n not obvious n it oni can b seen under the sun which is gud cuz im still schooling...lol i duno y i seem 2 hav lost my x-mas spirit.. well im supposed 2 b making x-mas cards.. baking cakes n cookies.. start shopping 4 my x-mas clothes n PRESENTS!! bt like no mood laah.. no idea y.. hmmph... its so boring at home.. i cant even go out..i feel like goin 4 a jog or cycling around bt like ter sm construction goin on nearby n like afta da incident dat happened 2 my uncle hu happens 2 live nxt door.. i so dun feel safe leaving my hse.. watz da incident u ask.. well it happened 1 day b4 my parents wedding anniversary.. Well it was a preety normal day for my uncle till he came home frm work.. he got down the car n then thats wen it hapened.. a bunch of guyz abt 8 of em got out of da car frm de bak n hit my uncle oh da head n hr fainted on de spot..tey also took his car.. loads of blood oozing.. every1 was screaming hysterically.. my mum, sis n aunt..my dad wasnt at home at de time..n well my neighbours..talk abt wonderful,caring n helpful ppl .. nobody came 2 help xcept 4 one of my neighbours.. da others juz stood n looked frm behind da gates of their houses.. well i get it ur afraid 2.. bt at least afta tey left u cud hav given a helping hand rite?? da worst was da shp ppl opp my hse.. Chickens i tell u.. i was reli..reli mad at em.. acting like tey din hear a thing.. bt tey were looking frm behind da curtains in their hse.. n oni afta everything.. i mean everything was ova tey asked wat had happened.. tey taught v kids were juz playing.. YEAH RITE!! like common laa.. dun tell me ur dat dumb.. cant u like hear da diff kinda screams.. da neighbour guy dat came 2 help.. helped carry my unc in2 d car 2 b taken 2 da hosp.. he lost his memory 4 a efew dayz.. now he is getting better though hs is not very stable yet.. da docs said dat it wil take abt 6mnths 2 cure fully.. scary.. i noe.. although i wasnt ter it spooked me.. juz imagine it happened rite nxt 2 my hse.. n da mastermind behind tis was definately trying 2 get myuncle cuz previously abt 2 weeks b4 tis happen.. anotha bunch of gangstaz tried 2 hijack his car at jln semarak... tey came wit parangs n axe.. n managed 2 oni break da windsow of da car... thank god my uncle quickly reversed n made a run 4 it.. neva taught a person like my uncle wud come across things like tis.. its reli very unfortunate.. luckily nth even worse happened.. wat happend 2 da police investigations u ask.. USELESS POLICEMAN!!!!!!! im blardeee angry eit da cops in malaysia.. tey reli dun deserve respect.. i despite em.. like tey were supposed 2 b on da case rite.. ter was so much of evidence.. n v even found my uncle stolen car n da car tey came in... both had weapons in em.. v then called da police n informed em.. n tey din bother afta my dad pulled sum strings then tey came n took sum finger prints.. n my dad even had 2 giv under table money 4 dat.. afta dat no action.. nth.. how useless can da cops in malaysia b ??? tey dun even seem 2 giv a damn abt lil ppl like us.. sigh..

EMO...

2007-11-13T23:50:00.000+08:00

Haha.. looks like im not as tough as a rock like H said .. Im way..WAaaayyyy.. more weaker.. especially wen it comes 2 de ones i luv <3 SO lemme givv ya da full version of things dat happened between H n me..

Well dat nite da Prefects dinner thing.. well he was supposed 2 tell me sumthin bt he didnt.. Instead he gave me sumthing else.. ;) So de nxt day.. well he sorta lost his voice bt he stil confessed .. AWWWwww so sweet <3.. Well i kinda ..sorta.. alresy know wat was gonna happen juz din noe de time.. so i was prepared i made him a card.. Watz inside u ask... hmm well datz 4 me n H 2 noe n 4 u 2 find out. *Winks Ter seems 2 b loads of chemistry happening.. =D Oh yea yest he told me he mite b leaving earlier.. mid Dec.. T.T so fast.. wen he told me dat.. i juz broke down on de spot.. i was like y so fas.. anyway he is doing all he can 2 oni leave in Jan.. Luv him so much!! <3 N how things will b so diff.. Dunno hw v r gonna communicate.. How often can he come on9?? the cost of living there is reli high.. dun wana trouble him.. 2 b honest im afraid.. scared like a kitty cat..Prob u ppl wud b like lmao afta reading tis.. bt well.. datz so not da way i feel...

Huge Gap

2007-11-13T23:04:00.000+08:00

Well i know i havent been blogging 4 a reli..reli..reli..reli LOOOOoooooNGGGggg time.. Hmm y?? lazy kot or mayb nt in d rite mood.. lol.. OK so lemme juz cut everything short .. N giv u all da scoops 2 d latest things... - Hazwedna?? rings a bell..?!?! things hav been going on... hmmph.. will giv in full detail l8er.. - LS has Cotton Candy so watz gonna happen 2 N?? Oooh.. datz gonna b heck of a juicy news.. - R.. Hmm.. Im starting 2 anti her.. Why?? no idea.. mayb its cuz like i tink she is hiding a lot of things.. n like behaving wierd.. n can b a spoilt sport n a party pooper.. common larrh.. if u hav a prob dun spoils every1 elses mood 2.. N She knows dat im like so pissed wit her 4 doin dat.. Oh yea i also hav news dat she anti me n dat L dosent like C n I.. wth n why does he still hang wit us then?? makes no sense.. WAT DA HELL DID I DO 2 U PPL?? -H told me dat he mite b leaving 4 US WAAAaayyyy earlier than planned.. prob by da mid of Dec.. bt he is trying his best 2 oni leave in Jan Commin up events..camps..ect - Pre Sophmore party?? -Pengguna Camp -YE annual thing.. -$850 leadership camp!! -Parents Anniversary -Samuel's Bday -Zarrah's Bday -Cuzzin TS Outting -KLCC -Work Wardrobe Shopping -Xmas Shopping - House Redocoration - Room Painting well datz da plans 4 now..

MEOW ME!!

2007-10-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

Well..well.. looks like im addicted 2 da Meow already .. a disease datz been spreading throughout Sek 5 High... N guess wat H gave me a custom made n designed MEOW ME shirt!! luv it so..so much!! N yes i have been wearing it 4 da pass 2 dayz.. HEY I WASHED IT!! xD Hmm call me a stalker.. bt i have been reading through N's blog n H's blog... Interesting.. loads of thing dat im well not supposed 2 noe is now known.. *gives dat evil grin wit dat evil laugh.. xD

Shop Till Ya Drop...

2007-10-18T00:16:00.001+08:00

Well surprise..surprise.. shopping till i drop for 3 dayz in a row goin on 2 da 4th 2 molo.. n wat hav i gotten so far.. hmm.. JUZ 1 TOP... amazing rite.. a person can actually get a top wen she has gone shopping 4 abt 14 hrs all togetha..

wat can i do?? im searching 4 da PURRR-FECT dress 4 da upcommin dinner... saw 2 which i mite buy bt i wil b goin 2 mid valley 2 mrw 2 cek out on more dresses..

Da worst part.. i hav put on quite sum weight thankz 2 da exames which made me not go out n exercise.. hope its worth it.. now i hav 2 like reli push myself if i wana loose all this weight b4 x-mas.. haih...

Has been a long ..long..time...

2007-10-18T00:04:00.001+08:00

well it has been quite sum time since i blogged.. so well ters loads 2 tell.. loads of new things goin on.. n well old once dat r cont.. hehe.. New.. - M asked me 2 find out abt RT n he dosent like ST cuz of K -Z new character.. interesting.. bt now he suckz.. -J is thinking of goin solo.. now wat m i gonna do?? -Slashing Wrists?? -K..starting nt 2 like him Cont.. - AD's back.. cant believe he actually remembered me.. does he reli love me n miss me like he said?? Doubt it.. He is prob juz using me n im juz like playing along.. - SA?? watz happen 2 him?? wered he go?? he hasnt msg me in quite a while.. no news till yest.. -P.. hmm mayb i was wrong abt my assumption.. mayb he was juz flirting around.. btw he is like younger than me

Why??

2007-09-30T00:11:00.000+08:00

Well i juz read J's blog.. i duno y.. i seemed 2 hav realized sumtin bt i still dino wat exactly wat it is.. Tears juz seem 2 b flowing down my cheeks.. PMR is like da day afta tomorrow... Comming 2 tink of it.. y the hech am i cryin?? Well i do feel lonely.. HECK i do.. IS TER SUMTIN WRONG WIT ME?? well wat dont i have?? hav an awsome family.. awsome frenz... ppl hu care a lot 4 me.. bt ters still sumthing missing... I duno wat bt ter is sumtin missining frm my life... Its like i lost something dat was so precious 2 me.. is it juz me or does every1 hav 2 hav dat special sum1 in their life?? am i missing dat?? am i envious?? am i scared?? am i nervous?? am i a rebel?? did i hurt sum1 datz special 2 me?? did i do something wrong?? or is it cuz i put on loads of weight?? watz becomin of me?? im startin 2 b anti social.. dressin in black.. keepin quite... a part of me is asking wat happened 2 dat cheerful lil gal?? wer has she gone 2?? why is she do depressed?? she has almost eveything ppl want.. She has everthing she needs..but she cant stop crying.. everynight she cries.. but why??

Wierd Much...

2007-09-25T20:51:00.000+08:00

Yesterday da FLM meeting was held in my hse.. so ter were da usual kids dat came.. n well 1 of em were P.. Seriously i tink he like has a crush on me or sumtin.. no joke.. 1st he was fine larr u noe like norm ppl.. at dat time i said i wanted 2 study.. well tell me hw larr 2 study in dat noise?? children screamin n runnin all ova n da meeting was down stairs.. at 1st he was like come tell ghost story.. i was like.. ala boring de larr..then v were juz leparkin around n he punched me n i punched him rite bak.. n well i gotta say he is quite strong..oh yea he also ended up like abngin in2 me at all da WRONG PLACES!!accident?? i donnno.. then he gt bored so he said he wanted 2 talk 2 me in private .. so i said ok.. so v wen in2 my room.. he locked da door n da toilet door as well so no1 could enter.. Well he dimmed da room lights.. as my room uses da yellow kinda light it looked cosy n well romantic.. He sat on da bed n i juz laid on my stomach.. Then he started askin me abt skool.. N i was like tellin him larr.. afta dat he wanted 2 tell a ghost stiry.. gotta say he is preety creative 2 make up a story lidat.. bt da thing i still could get was y me ALONE?? dat question was alwiz playing at da back of my mind.. N later v talked abt actress n i asked hu was his fav.. n he wan jessica alba, kiera Knightly n Edna.. LOL i was like yea rite!! bt da way he said my name was diff.. like umm.. i duno hw 2 explain larr.. anyway afta dat v ended up staring at each otha.. it was like almost 5 min.. v were juz foolin around doin stupid eye movements.. afta dat da gf topic came up.. n he told me abt his previos 2 n asked me y?? u wana b my gf?? i was like eww.. no!! Bt da thing was everytime he looked at me in dat sorta way.. i felt like ter was a connection.. U noe dat way like i wana kiss u sorta way.. n NR kept bangin on da door n she said going home.. so i wen 2 cek it out n our private converse ended.. sumhow tis lil voice in my head keeps tellin me he likes u n wanted 2 asku 2 b his.. wierd much?? Aftda dat he wanted 2 tell ghost stories so i wen out 4 awhile n he wanted 2 tell blu stories n i was like NO!! not here.. too many under age.. he is as well..N he was like shud hav told u abt it juz nw.. i wen like YEA!! 2 BAD!! in dat sacarstic way..xD So v ended up exchanging ghost stories.. n in awhile he had 2 go bak..

Bugg3R!!

2007-09-24T00:33:00.000+08:00

OMG.. JB is such a bug i tell u.. everytime v met he has 2 do sumtin or say sumtin 2 me.. 2 dy afta tution he purposely kept on stepping on da bak of my flip flop... I tell u.. he has nth better 2 do.. He dosent reli distureb otha girls except me!! IM DA VICTIM!! haizz.. wat can i do?? so geram.. wana juz hit him bak!! xD... I tink im ova AD.. me goofing around aint dat fun de.. So i blocked him!! =D

Sadifiying?

2007-09-20T18:24:00.000+08:00

Watz wrong wit me?? i feel like a total mess wen im not.. i feel like a total screw up.. i feel like da whole world is opposing me.. i dun feel wanted no more.. I feel lonely wen im not.. Im getting jelous wen im not supposed 2.. im crying 4 all da reasons dat dun make no sense.. im isolating myself.. is it cuz i need dat sum1 special ter 2 hold me up?? Y dun i feel rite?? is it cuz almost every1 has sum1 xcept me?? Y do i even bother?? I am causing my own pain.. Y am i doing tis?? wats wrong wit me.. Y dun i feel rite.. ters sumthing missing frm me.. I feel like i lost da world 2 sumthing... I feel like my life is falling apart.. Watz goin on?? I reli need sum1 4 me.. not my frenz n family.. cant seem 2 open up 2 em.. tey prob think i gona nutz or sumtin.. N mite juz leave me alone.. I dun like bein alone.. Wers da person u need wen u need him?? Why cant i find him yet?? Y hav i been attracting all da wrong guys 2wards me?? M i dat desperate?? Broken Inside.. Bt on da outside i neva show it.. though sumtimes i seem 2 b in my own world.. bt i can go nutz at times.. bt yet.. da sadness in me juz dosent seem 2 go away.. or is dis all cuz da exames r so close??? GOD PLEASE HELP ME!!!

OucHie....

2007-09-18T22:11:00.001+08:00

Ouch.. my shoulder blade seriously hurts 2 da max!! n i sprained my neck 2 make matters worse.. hurting badly.. Skool was fine.. oh yea SA juz smsed me.. N i din bother 2 reply larr.. 2 lazy.. he prob wil b mizcallin me so dat i wud reply.. ish.. its getting annoying wen ppl juz keep on smsin u 4 nth.. except if its dat special sum1 its diff.. =) Not dat i have any1.. bt well.. ==

C was tellin me abt J n S 2 dy.. r tey hiding sumtin?? I duno.. well cant do nth abt it..

I gt so tempted 2 read H's blog.. well tey duno abt my blog.. sorta tryin 2 keep a low profile..

Believe me i gt a lil jelous at times .. Y?? i duno.. bt i noe he is reli nice!!. .. ..

Well he used 2 reli like me i tink its gud dat v r sorta a distant now.. At least he is still da same.. LOL..xD

Im getting a lil worried of myself.. im not studying well.. im taking things 2 lightly.. i dun seem 2 hav fear 4 my PMR tough i noe im not totally prepared.. now its all in GODS hands 2 c wat happens 2 me.. =)

Bet u Wil b wondering wat happened 2 AD.. Well i tink its over between him n me.. He was sorta mytype.. bt had quite sum things dat i din like abt him.. n i guessed he blocked me adi.. anyway he is 2 OLD 4 me!!! & 6 yrs diff.. he cud b my elder bro or sumtin..

Wierd..

2007-09-17T21:54:00.000+08:00

AS has been acting reli wierd lately.. V were talkin abt exames n subjects we were weak in.. Then.. he said dat he wud pray 4 me.. n i said dat i hav been praying 4 him alwiz.. n he goes like i not oni pray 4 u bt also all our classmates.. ok i get it he is a nice person..n Enuf wit de Smsing adi larr.. havent i given u enuf hints dat i dun wana go furthur.. N i cant sms u so often?? He is so darn ANNOYING!!

No Fear..

2007-09-15T10:05:00.000+08:00

Anotha 15 dayz more n i still hav no fear 2wards da exames.. usually by now i wil b so scared n wil b studying like crazy... looks like im not.. im not avan gud at all my subjects yet!!.. HELP!!!

17 DAYZ MORE..

2007-09-13T22:47:00.000+08:00

Juz anotha 17 dayz n i wil b sittin 4 my PMR.. i duno y bt.. i juz cant seem 2 b able 2 juz take it seriously.. i noe it wil help decide my future.. arts or science... bt yet.. da fear is juz not in me.. im juz so relaxed.. im done studying.. i have so much more bt i juz cant seem 2 do it.. i duno y.. bt i juz cant.. well im tryn 2 study rite now.. a lil goin in.. a lil not goin in.. makin notes.. revising.. hopefully i do well.. i pray 2 God.. he is my oni hope left.. <3 Jesus!! aite i beta get goin.. muakxx ~DarK Ang3L

Looks Like i cant stay away...

2007-09-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

well im not supposed 2 come on9.. but well.. how can i stay away.. terls lotz of thing 4 me 2 tell.. 1st lets start wit AS.. well.. he is a reli nice guy.. till i stoped smsin him.. told him earlier though i wun b able 2 cont smsin him tis often.. now abt AD.. well he is ok i guess bt a lil stressed up wit work.. he is reli nice n caring .. bt ters 1 thing dat i juz cant seem 2 accept.. He likes 2 talk a lil dirty sumtimes.. i get it he is a guy n stuff lidat.. he needs 2 release tension.. bla..bla..blaa.. everytime i tink abt him.. his nice-ness.. all da thing dat i dun quite like abt him juz flies away frm my mind.. I even dreamt abt him twice.. everytime he starts a converse i dun like i jzu say i gtg n leave.. though he has a very strong aura 2wards me.. he is like my magnet.. i can juz cant seem 2 saty away frm him.. bt da thing is.. v hav a very big age gap.. n im afraid dat he mite nt like me wen he meets me.. stuff lidat.. i even satrted thinking abt da future.. n wondering wil i b able 2 hav a happy life?? can he support me financially?? will my parents approve of him?? many questions run in my head.. at tis point my parents dun wan me 2 hav a bf.. datz preety obvious cuz v were on da way bak frm tution n my mum satrted saying things like all prob satrts wen u hav a bf.. n my dad says watz da use of havin a bf at tis age.. n my goes like.. it bring lots of prob..emotional probs.. n stuff lidat... well wat she says is rite.. bt u noe wen ur at dis age.. u tend 2 hav crushes n wen all ur frenz hav bf.. it gets reli akward wen ur da 3rd person n all ur frenz r wit their pair.. n datz da time u feel like watz wrong wit me?? Why dont i get 2 hav sum1 lidat 4 me..? Well da feeling juz reli sucks.. Well come 2 tink of it.. da ppl hu do well in studies in skool dun seem 2 hav a partner.. so i guess mayb its true.. u can concentrate more.. Bt wen i told AD dat i cant consentrate in studies if i was his gf.. he told me dat wen u hav a partner, tey wil alwiz b ter 2 support u.. b ter 4 u.. n u wil wana prove 2 em ur worth it.. n make em proud.. wat he says is also so true.. N i seriously duno if he is reli serious wit me.. arghh.. hating tis so badly..

Rumah Destiny..

2007-09-01T21:32:00.000+08:00

Well yesterday i went 2 Rumah Destiny.. well its a home 4 kids.. had a small bbq party.. well i went 2 an orphanage b4 n da kids ter were totally shy.. bt tey were ok later bt ter were sum whom were still shy.. well in rumah destiny in abt 5 min n we were frenz wit ever1 already!! well except 4 da guys abt my age.. v hardly spoke.. haha.. ter was tis 1 guy AJ.. well i hav bumped in2 him b4 in Metro Tab.. well i neva found him very cute or anything.. he was sorta quiet.. he had a very diff look.. Well i sorta gt attracted 2 him.. Well he has a butt which i taught was hot.. da way he wore his pants din make it obvious bt it was HOt!! (i dun usually do tis.. guess im goin nuts!!) YEa n i still remember his Laugh.. it was so cute.. OMG im attracted 2 him!! anyway he is also my age.. xD well i hope v wil b frenz bt i dun tink i wana reltionship..juz wan it 2 b a lil crush.. if anything were 2 happen i would leave it all in2 Gods hands...

Loooong Time...

2007-08-30T12:14:00.000+08:00

its been quite sum time since i have posted nethin.. so lemme tell ya frm da time i wen 2 taiping.. well in taiping.. v wen 4 tis unclee weddin party (da day b4 da party).. well i din expect it 2 b in an estate.. i was in a dress so was my sis.. N wen v wen ter it was like culture colisation!! it felt seriously akward!! wen v 1st entered da lady taught v came 2 do da performance!! LOL... then it rained.. it was so messy n mudddy!!.. then i saw this reli..reli cute guy!! so darn cute!! OMG!! i caould tell he wasnt frm ter.. its was obvious by da way he dressed.. he was so cute!! at da end i wen t home wit my cuz so my parents were left ter n afta abt 30 min tey satrted 2 dance!! i regreted goin bak 2 da hotel!! haizz... shud hav stayed!! Well da nxt day v wen 2 Bkt larut,... well nth much up ter bt da ride up was darn scary!! n da guy drivin da jeep was like fast!! dat made it even more scarier!! well then wen v got bak.. my mum n i wen 2 da saloon 2 do our hair n i met da cute guy walkin ter!! I WAS LIKE omg!! HE IS SO DARN CUTE!!.. anyway..afta i gt bak was doin my hair n studd lidat.. n i gt reli pissed n started yellin at my sis.. cuz everything was goin well.. i was reli..reli..late!! weell wit all dat anger in me.. a few tears juz rolled down my cheeks.. well then we went 4 da weddin.. n v met da cute guy again!! YAY!! he was so cute!! da best part was wen ma parents wen 2 get their food, v were sittin alone n he n his fren came 2 sit wit us.. he started small chat.. n i wanted 2 cont..unfortunately my parents came bak n tey left!! =( sadifiying!! i was sure he was checkin us out adi by then.. hw sad afta my parents ate dinner v had 2 leave 2 KL adi.. =(

Not BAD!!

2007-08-22T14:25:00.000+08:00

OMG!! cant belive i actually got 6A's n 1B... im happy bt sad at da same time cuz da B was oni 2 marks away frm an A!! I could hav gt straight A's if i had juz studied!!haizz... at least i did my best... =) WEll im actually quite proud of myself.. lemme cont abt AD aite.. chatted wit him again 2 day.. i wanted 2 tell him dat i sorta lost feelings 4 bt.. i was WRONG!! wen v chatted.. i duno y bt i felt like it was full of chemistry!! its was such a diff feeling... i was abt 2 tell him how i feel n wen he started talkin.. i was addicted2 him AGAIN!!! WATZ WRONG WIT ME??? yorr... im gonna ned up hurting myself.... y cant i do it?? do i luv him?? i told him my results n he was so proud of me.. =) tears started 2 weld up my eyes wen v started chatting.. i duno y bt it did.. I felt like i missed him like neva b4.. missed everything abt him... Oh yea.. my mum was also acting a lil wierd 2 day.. in da mornin wen she woke me up.. She gave me da guess watch she bought 4 herself!! i was like isnt it 4 u?? n she was like 4 u.. present.. i was like 4 wat... n she say cuz i do well i told her u giv present adi merr.. bt she still gave it 2 me

HAPPY or SAD??

2007-08-13T15:58:00.000+08:00

Skool waz ok 2day.. nothing reli exciting except 4 da fact i gt an A 4 my bm... i dun get it y does B say im RS gf?? he adi has a gf 4 goodness sake.. i mean like dosent he like get da point?? anyway... im so happy i gt an A 4 BM!! YAY!! so far 6 A's juz 1 more.. most prob i wil b gettin da results by 2molo... now im seriously confused abt AD.. is he calling me a tramp??or waz it ment 4 sum1 else?? did i hurt him?? wuz he reli serious wit me?? he din even approach me... i dun tink he would like my appearance if he met me... i knew he was flirting wit C... bt i taught he was serious wit her cuz im like 6 yrs younger than him... n tey seem very close 2 each other... i sked him abt it once.. he told me it was nothing... AD y r u doin tis 2 me?? he is like a magnet... 2 attractive n im addicted..... i i have been avoiding him.. i tink he knows dat... i juz hope he is not mad at me.. he prob wil b.. =(

SUE's Bday!!

2007-08-09T23:24:00.001+08:00

Well v planned a surprise party 4 sue 2 day... n so much of misunderstandings!! her bf left at 2 b4 v gt ter wit da cake... He made plans n din tell us!! HOW COULD HE!! its his gf bday!! n ever1 was pissed at ever1.. ppl gt da wrong info... n it havoc!! running here n ter wit secret recipe raspberry cheese cake!! da worst part is.. he told her v were givin her a surprise party n told her v were gonna go get da cake!! anyway v still celebrated her party.. it was quite fun.. da worst paart was wen sue din even get any cake on her face n I got da worst!!! all over!! tey stuffed it in2 my NOSE!! anyway it was lots of fun !! totally enjoyed it though da misunderstandings earlier!!...

MAth Paper!!

2007-08-09T23:19:00.000+08:00

I cant belive it!! i only gt a 49/60 for math paper 2!!! DATZ Seriously bad!! 5 careless mistakes!! n i 4 gt 2 answer sum questions!!! DAMn my total marks is oni 86 n there r ppl hu r scoring 99/100!!!

What Should I do???

2007-08-08T23:39:00.000+08:00

Im sorta in a confused, stupid, unsure feeling rite now... N yes.. its cuz of a guy.. AD... Well it sorta an on9 thing... v met n clicked.. he is like 6 yr older than me... things were ok 4 da 1st few months.. till now i tink what should i do?? do i wan tis?? He was reli nice... He was there wen i needed him.. comforting me.. encouraging me.. i havent met him in person yet.. bt im thinking twice.. should i or should i not?? I have a feeling he is cheating on me... i noe he flirts with other girls at da moment.. im not sure how serious he is taking this.. once i told him im gonna leave him.. n he gt pissed.. n sad.. he talked me bak 2 b bein wit him.. is he playing wit me or is he 4 real?? Should i get in2 tis or not... i dunno.. so confused...

TriALz Ova...

2007-08-08T23:36:00.000+08:00

Trialz r over... ended yesterday... n so fast i gt most of my results... they were much better than expected.. THANK GOD!!! wierdly i hav tis urge 2 study 2 day... wierd bt true... n thankz 2 Siu wern.. im stuck 2 da Potential break up song... XD listedned 2 it more than 25 times over n over again.. not getting bored of it yet... hehehehe....

PMR Trialz

2007-08-04T22:25:00.000+08:00

Well im supposed 2 b studyin 4 my trials rite now... bt since im not its gonna b a late nite 4 me i guess... i juz wanna noe y do trials make people so tensed up?? its like its gonna b the end of the world.. i was seriously worried when i passed up the wrong paper 4 my BM ... bt when i told my mum she was freaking.. n i taught i was freaking... i hevnt studied a bit of geography,science nor KH..

im so headed for doom..

haizzz... how i wish i could juz suck eduation in my brains without havint 2 study datz will make like 100x easier!!